The marauders

Sirius entered the gates of hogwarts after doing side apparation. He saw little encharments coming up when the gate closed. He sighed it was around 3pm on a Friday. Classes would be ending any minute now. He walked through the school fastly not wanting to be seen and decided to go up to the astormany tower. His mind flash back to that night with Peter it felt like only yesterday. He went over and clung to the bars. The ones he'd climbed over. Then he heard voices. Not wanting to be seen just yet he hid behind a pillar.

"Servurus, listen to me I won't be your freind after you called me, me a MUDBLOOD" shouted the too familiar voice of lily. "It just slipped out last year, look this is the first time you've talked to me in months please forgive me " begged serverus Snape. There came no reply but the sound of someone walking down some stairs.

Lily and Serverus had been freinds for 4 years. She couldn't forgive him for one word. Sirius had known her for only a year. How was she going to forgive him. He didn't even said he didn't want to be freinds with her anymore in person.

Sirius stood behind the pillar until he heard another set of feel go down the stairs. He went down the stairs too. Unsure of wear to go next.

He in the end went outside. He sat in a little corner. Only a few people saw him not many. And thankfully not his old freinds.

"I didn't even here they'd found him, and now he's back at hogwarts" a girl said to her freind. "Not trying to listen in but who's back" Peter asked hearing. "Oh didn't you know, your freind sirius we just saw him outside" said the other girl and she and her freind walked away. The three boys faces lit up and then ran out the common room, bashing into lily and telling her the news. She was joyed at this emidiatly.

Eventhought it was January, sirius lay on the ground and stared up at the sky. He didn't even notice the four figures coming closer and closer. Finnaly he stood up sighed and hunged his shoulders upwards hearing a little click. Then he was baciacly tackled to the ground someone had jumped onto his back and he fell to the ground. His wand raised out of his pocked in his hand and was pointed at the attackers throught. Then he lowered it, the attaker was James.

Sirius stood up and wiped his shirt. He didn't even look at the others. He stood silent staring at james standing up. "Pads, you aren't still mad, you still don't want to be are freinds" James said. Sirius gulped how do they still want to be his tears appeared in his eyes he bowed his head so no one could see and said "I never didn't want to be your freinds, I just, Reg, he could of used one of you guys to get to me, it would be putting you guys in danger" Sirius breathed.

"And I though I was the dumb one" peeped up Peter. "You realy think we care that being freinds with you is dangerous, we would do anything to be freinds with you" Peter said. Sirius did what he feared of doing he looked at Peter and smiled a bit. But then he saw it Remus, just standing there, he rememberd seeing remus crumple to the ground and how he turned around hearing his sobs. Sirius swayed on the spot. "Sirius, you ok-" James began. But serious fell to his left side. James caught him, standing him up straight.

Sirius gulped some air and he became calmer. "I'm sorry" he said but it came out it gulps and sobs. "I left you there, I turned around and left you there" he said. Remus knew Sirius was talking to him, even though he wasn't looking at him. "IM A DISGUSTING PEICE OF SHIT " Sirius shouted and he felt like he was going to throw up he disgusted himself. He pulled James away from him and ran. He ran so fast it was surprising they still saw him.

He ran to the boys bathroom. It was empty. He went into one of the toilets, closed the door and threw up. He cried. Then he cleaned himself up and washed his mouth with water. He was so disgusting he was a disappointment.

He walked out the bathroom. He noticed the 4 looking around. Certainly for him. They saw him and came over. "Don't say that about yourself" Remus said. But sirius couldn't look at him not again.

They all walked up into the common room, then into the boys dorm. They all sat in a silence for quite a while. Sirius couldn't talk. "It's dinner, let's go" Lily spoke up. All of them walked down in silence toghther.

They were walking sirius behind them. He tugged on lily's cloak and she came and walked next to him "I was in the Astronomy tower, when you had the fight with serverus, you ok" he said. Lily smiled at him and said "I'm great sirius, it's just good to have you back".

After dinner, they went up to the common room again and soon to bed. Sirius was in his bed when he felt someone sit on the chair next to his bed. He didn't look. "You are not peice of shit, sirius I see what you tried to do and I forgive you, now let me tell you.. " Remus began and he started to stroke sirius ear noing he would be awake ".. How I felt when Peter told us you- you tried to kill yourself" Remus said it hurt him to think about it.

Sirius got a bit angry then remus said "I was scared and in pain just at the thought, I would be broken if I lost you". The words sunk into sirius.