I didn't know where to start so i'll just start here.
SO, I'm just sitting on the floor, watching Youtube. More specifically watching Great Big Story (check them out). They talk about unique people and just unique things in general. And, if you can imagine, having to pump videos out constantly would lead them to make a vid on synesthetes. (I just checked and they closed their youtube 3 months ago TT) They had like 3 vids on synesthesia, so, me being desperate for entertainment, I watched them. I think I watched the vid on mirror touch synesthesia first. I thought it was super cool, but also sounded hard to live with. So I watched their other on synesthesia. I think is was called words taste like meatballs? And I don't have any taste stuff so I was simply vibing until someone was like 6 is a flirty woman and I internally died inside. "6 is so obviously a shy man. He's best friends with 7 and won't talk to anyone else. Also he's orange." it took me a moment to realize what I just thought. I immediatly went down the LONGEST research rabbit hole. There isn't much on synesthesia, let alone ordinal linguistic personification. But I basically gutted out the internet for all the info on it. A couple months later, I managed to squeeze a science project out of the info I found. I was completely OBSESSED for around a year, but then I experienced a huge ego death and my internal speech was like "No one wants to deal with your stupid crap." And I haven't talked about it much since. But, i'm ready now. I think I found a middle in my brain between constantly talking about synesthesia even if you don't want to hear it, and not talking about it at all. So now im venting on 抖阴社区 to people who for some reason chose to listen to my crap.
