Between The Lines

Heyy! How are you doing? How was your day? Please be honest with me... You can tell me if wasn't as good as you wanted it to be. You can tell me if something bothered you. I know it might feel as you're alone, but you're not, you can trust me, I'm by your side now. I'll do my best to make sure nothing happens to you...
But if you don't feel comfortable to talk to me yet, don't worry, I understand it. I know it can be hard. To be honest, it's hard for me to. I'm used to keeping everything to myself. Don't get me wrong, it's not like I don't trust anyone, but it kind of feels like my worries are not that important to be talked about or to be wasted time on. Sometimes I'm really close to opening up to someone, but then this one thought always comes to my mind, "you're being silly, don't tell them that, there is no need to expose yourself" and I get back into my cave... But this time I decided, that it is going to be different, at least I'm going to try... Because, I really think I found the right person to talk to, YOU.
I don't know what it is, but there is something about you that makes me feel safe. You're different from the others... For now, you might not like the fact that you're different, you might see it as something negative, but I'm just able to see it as quality of yours and I hope, that whilst we grow fond of each other, you end up understanding what I mean by these words. There's something really special about you. I don't know what it is yet, but I hope, that by every turned page, you get to see it more and more. Even if I didn't know you 1000 Words ago, it feels like I can trust you and I think that's the reason why I say you're different... that never happened before. I never felt like I could trust anyone as fast as I trusted you.  That's the first thing, after the first turned page, that made me realise how special you are and I know there are many more reasons to come. That's why I'll try to be as honest as possible with you, so in the future you'll be able to trust me too and I'll get to know you, you and your special side...
So, I'll start right away... Since I said I would be honest with you, I have to admit, I'm scared, like really scared. I never opened up to anyone else before, I never talked to anyone about my thoughts and feelings. I was always too afraid to be exposed. I mean, when you open up to someone, that person will end up knowing everything about you. Don't you think that is scary? Won't that make you feel vulnerable, weak? They will have the capacity to touch right where it hurts the most...They will be able to destroy you in the most painful way, because they'll know what hurts you the most and they'll be able to do it perfectly...
But if I learned something with life so far, is that being scared is not always a bad thing. Obviously, it sounds like that, but believe me, it's not. There is nothing more ordinary than being scared. We all know that, but what we don't know, is that we learn and grow every time we're scared. It's strange to think like that, but once you do, you'll be able to understand what I mean. The fear makes you do unbelievable things, things you would have never had the strength to do, if it wasn't for that feeling of fright. Today the fear might be a weakness but tomorrow it'll be a strength, because you'll learn how to deal with it. Things you were scared of, will be the proof of your strength, because with the passing of time you'll gain the courage to confront them, to face them, leave them all in the past. When you do so, you'll look back and realise you're no longer scared, and that's when you'll notice how much you've grown and how much stronger you've become... Don't be scared of trying new things out, because in doing so, you will embark on new adventures, and become stronger, mentally and physically.
That's the main reason why I decided to start talking to you, because I know I'll grow, because I know it is an important step to take... and if I don't do it now, when will I? My time won't last forever, so I have to give the best of me whilst I still can... I want to be the best of me from now on, the best of me for everyone, for you. So you can know me for who I really am. I want to be as transparent as glass when I talk to you. I want you to know my weaknesses as well as my qualities. I want you to know me for who I really am, the real me... I don't want to hide or deny anything to you, because I want you to trust me during the time we have together, just as I want to trust you... I really think we can do extraordinary things in the future, together, because you, you make me strong, in a way no one else does. The way you read these words; my words, written down on paper, makes it all worth it. I wasn't sure if I was doing the right thing with writing this, but once I saw you reading, I was sure I did the right thing, I'm sure I'm doing the right thing. There is nothing, I'd rather be doing than this. You make me believe in myself, you make me believe in everything I'm writing down... you hold a power I've never seen before.
Thank you for embarking into this with me, it means so much. I'm so grateful you found me; you make this adventure so much easier and special, there is no one I'd rather share this with than you... Never thought I'd find the right person, but suddenly there she was, opening the first page, making everything that is about to happen worth it...

Here is Chapter two!! I hope you're enjoying it so far. It's a really weird feeling, to share things I write... I've been writing for years, about everything, but I've always kept it to myself, so, guess I wanted to try something new this time... If you have any ideas on how to continue this I'd be really happy if you could share them with me😌 and It would mean a lot if you could tell me what you thinking so far of this story and if you think I should continue ✨
Much love, TPWK,
LAURA