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It's been a week and after that whole fiasco, Josh and I distanced for a few days then mutually ended if out of anger. Josh still thinks I was overreacting and I think I reacted just fine, but you know, differing perspectives I guess. Who knows, i guess my feelings never really mattered in ths first place. It was all a hoax just to get into the virgin of the school's pants.

I'm going to a party tonight, that should help me get all this shit off my mind. Get wasted, get fucked and pray to god Josh isn't there and if he is, that I don't get fucked by him.

Amelie, Mads and I pulled up to the party in Blake's Porsche as we all stepped out, walking into the party with short dresses. I was wearing a short blue dress while Amelie was wearing a short pink dress and Mads a short purple one.

"yoooo the virgin of the school be looking like the slut of the school" I heard somebody yell out

I looked around the room, finding my eyes looking at this one boy, the newly named fuckboy of the school. I walked up to him, gesturing him to bring his head down. I took my medium length nails, dragging them across his cheekbone then whispering in his ear

"funny, I'm not a virgin anymore, and the first guy to fuck me got the first go at this pussy. It most definitely wasn't you though, you're too stuck up to be my type, so maybe I'd close your mouth, cause we all know....you wouldn't be able to pull me"
"I could snatch that pussy in a minute, what you on about"
"your ego's kinda funny. What did I say before hon? you couldn't pull me if you wanted" I said dragging my nails down his jawline
"tease"

with that, I walked away and Doja started playing over the speakers

I walked over to the island, where I poured myself some straight vodka in a red, plastic cup. I was sipping on it here and there when I felt somebody come up to me and wrap their arms around me.

"you're looking good tonight baby"

I turned around to see Josh behind me, leaving hickeys on my neck.

"who said I was your baby and who gave you permission to hickey fuck my neck"
"you know you like it"
"you're not turning me on whatsoever if that's what you think you're doing. I'm still mad at you"
"you could be mad at me and still enjoy me railing you senseless"
"depends on what you're doing. you gotta match my kinks to make me even consider fucking you."
"oh I showed you those kinks, don't get too cocky there Ms. Barrett"
"you're acting like a leech on my back, take the hint"

Josh immediately took his lips off my neck, moving his arm around me to choke me and push me agaisnt the wall

"holy hell" I gasped
"you know that pussy is mine right? I only have access to it and we all know, I'm the only one you're gonna let in, in more ways than one" he winked
"I'm not yours right now, Richard's. I'll open my legs for whoever I want, whenever I want. I don't need your validation. and if they look like they have a bigger dick than you....I'll take it" I said, whispering in his ear and tracing his face with my nails.
"oh you know this dick pleases you just fine"
"you never know, somebody might have it thicker and longer. you don't know until you try"
"oh you're such a tease"
"now get off of me, imma go find my girls"

Josh backed up letting me walk away. I went and got a new drink, I got milder liquor and mixed it so I didn't get as wasted as I would with straight vodka. Once I did that, I went and found Amelie with Avani and Mads with Darianka. We five all just hung out. Until another Doja song came on. We were grinding and dancing agaisnt each other, just like the girls we are. Then somehow Mads got swapped out with a boy and I was now grinding on a random kid. He grabbed my ass as I bent over agaisnt him, twerking and he started moving with me as I looked over and saw Josh PISSED

I was in that area for a few minutes and I set my drink with Amelie and Mads for a split second to do something and the minute I picked it up and took a drink, I felt dizzy. Then I felt a hand pulling me upstairs. I didn't think much of it. I've drank my parents liquor and I get reactions like this when my body says 'that's enough' so I really only thought it was that. I was feeling kind of off anyways and usually that's what happens before my body just refuses to take anymore. This didn't feel any different than any other time.

As I was being pulled upstairs, I felt the person's grip tighten along my wrist as he pulled us in a room and pinned me to the bed....

I know, I know, I've kept on saying I've wanted dick all night but I never realized how right Josh was when he said that earlier. When he said that I wouldn't let anyone else in. I was physically scared because it wasn't Josh being the one taking care of me, making sure I was comfortable, it was a random high schooler, just wanting to dick a girl down.

The minute I let that fact process, I started resisting and trying to get him off of me. My shirt was half off and I didn't want to be in this situation at all.

Soon enough before it went any further, I felt the weight off of me and a familiar grasp hold me tight as a blanket was wrapped around me.

"it's okay, its okay" I heard the familiar voice say

I looked up to see Josh, holding me in his bear hug arms.

I didn't even realize I had shed a few tears and had a shaky breath

"how'd you know?"
"I saw the guy drug your drink but I didn't go after you because I knew you'd be even more pissed at me, so I just watched you closely, then the guy went too far so I followed you up and saved you"
"I could've saved myself Josh"
"no you couldn't have, you were to weak with that alcohol in your system and it was pretty noticeable to everyone around"
"thank you anyways"
"you're welcome"

we smiled at each other as we walked back down to the party. Things quickly escalated and we were in an uber back to my place...