Lock and Key

A panic attack and the F word

"I think you had a panic attack." Finn explained. I moved towards him and he gathered me in his arms again. "Do you know what caused it?"

"I was... uh..."

"It's okay. Take your time." Finn rubbed my back soothingly.

"I was thinking about Micheal. What if he needs leverage? What if he tries to hurt one of you guys, or my parents?" I began to cry.

"Lilah. I'm not going to let that happen." He reassured me.

"Finn. You don't know what he's capable of. He could be after you!"

"Lilah." He chuckled. "I've fought him before, and won. I think i'll be okay."

"Yeah, he couldn't hurt you. He had an act to keep up, remember? He was letting you off easy." I explained.

The look on his face told me that he understood.

"Everything will be okay. Don't worry so much. We'll figure this out." He promised.

"I hope so." I leaned my head on his shoulder, then thought better of it and moved away. We shouldn't be doing this. He has a girlfriend.

"What are you thinking about?" He asked as I looked away from him.

"This is wrong." I said and finally met his eyes.

"What's wrong?" His eyes filled with concern.

"We've been getting pretty close... maybe a little too close. Finn, you have a girlfriend. It shouldn't be like this between us."

His eyes softened and his gaze became intense. He averted his eyes from mine and he looked down at his lap, letting out a sigh.

"I know Lilah. We're just friends.. right?"

My heart felt like it was shattered into a million pieces when he said that F word. Friends. That's what we are. Why did I ever think that we could be more than that?

"Right. Friends." I said shaking my head. "You know, we should probably get back to class now. Mr. Carter is probably getting worried."

"I doubt that, but okay." He stood up. He looked like he was gonna hold out his hand to help me up but quickly pulled it back.

I stood up also and followed him into the classroom. Mr. Carter nodded at us as we both walked to our seats.

10 minutes left of school. That's it. Then I can go home and write my feelings, and maybe I can come up with a song that would get me famous.

Another impossible dream.
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"Hey! Lilah!" Kayla shouted behind me, running until she was walking beside me.

"Hey." I nodded at her and kept walking to Catherine's car, which I was borrowing until I made up the money to get my own car.

"You alright? You seem upset about something." She asked.

"Finn used the F word with me." I said. Kayla just laughed until I gave her a dirty look. "Not that kind of F word."

Then what kin- OHH! That one!" Her eyes widened. "I mean, he does have a girlfriend."

"Who doesn't give an F word about him! And yes I mean the other word!" I exclaimed gesturing across the parking lot to Maddie who was flirting while standing a little too close to a guy I did not recognize.

"That B word!" Kayla said, and we both laughed. "Listen, if you and Finn are meant to be, it'll happen. Right now I think you just need to give Finn time to figure his life out."

"Your right. I don't know why this is bothering me so much. I've told myself over and over again that all we can be is friends but it's so much worse coming-"

"from him. yeah, I know." Kayla finished for me. "Lilah, you just survived being kidnapped! You can handle some silly boy drama! Just let it work itself out."

"Okay. You're right. I'm gonna go home now."

"Can I come over? It's Lucas's birthday and my parents are moping because he doesn't want visitors." Kayla begged.

"Well... I don't know. I was kind of hoping for some time to myself." I mentioned.

"Oh no. You are not going to become sad Lilah and write tragic love songs! Not happening! I'm coming over, and we're making cookies." She stated. She walked ahead of me and got into my car.

"Yeah. By all means, get in." I muttered and stomped my way to the drivers side.

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