Therefore I am Yours | Billie Eilish - Watty Awards 2022

Jordan POV

Wow. I don't think I've ever felt worse apart from the day we were yelling at each other at Coachella.
That day was awful.

"I'm a literal asshole... nothing but an asshole." I silently say.

Billie sits back down on her bed and lets her face rest in her hands, sighing.

"Hey, is everything alright between you two?" I hear from behind me.

It's Billie's dad.

"I don't even know." Billie answers and walks out, passing him and going to sit down on the sofa in the living room.

I'm still standing here, not even bothering to move.

"Jordan?" He speaks up again, approching me from behind and placing his hand on my shoulder.
"Are you okay?"

My gaze falls to the floor. I try getting something out but there's nothing coming.

"I will go talk to Billie." He says and walks after her, leaving the door open.
"Billie!"

"What?!" She madly yells back from the living room.

"Go talk to Jordan. I don't want you two being angry af each other when today is your last day here."

"Why do you care?" Billie snaps back at him, giving attitude.

"Excuse me?"

"Dad, just leave me the fuck alone. If she has trust issues that's not my problem!"

That hit hard, damn.

I hear him sigh and walk away from the both of us. I'm not mad at him though, I mean I'm always walking away from everything.

"Are you okay?" Maggie quietly questions, coming to look for me.

"Yeah." I barely get out, wiping some tears away.

Some sad tears, some regretful ones. I got all kinds. You want some? I got 'em.

"You sure?" She steps closer.

"Yeah, Maggie. I just think I'll head home." I smile at her, trying to reassure her I'm good.

"Okay. I hope I'll see you before we leave. Take care." She walks me to the door.

Billie doesn't say a word. Nothing.
She's laying there like I never existed.

I sigh and turn my head away from her and leaving their house after Maggie hugged me.

I know what I did and I know it was fucking wrong but like I also think that's not a reason to ignore me like that and not even saying 'goodbye'.

Maybe I'm wrong but I'm still her girlfriend and she's coldly going out of my way in front of the eyes of her parents? Damn, my dad would kick me out for disrespectful behavior.

Yes, respect is playing a big role in household Lewis.

Anywas, I just hope that Billie 'calms down' and changes her mind about ignoring me cause man oh man, I hate it.

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Billie POV

Not this shit again. Not another one of these stupid ass, gratuitous ass disputes.

I hate myself for feeling the way I feel and acting the way I acted but I also hate her for the pretty much nonexistent faith.

Why the fuck did she have to act up like that. Did she forget that we've known each other for literal months.