Loki's darling

chapter 21

"Thor wait." you shouted after him when he was just opening his door. "Go away
Y/N." Thor told you calmly but didn't open the door. "No, please Thor, can we talk?" you asked him softly. He turned on you with hurting look on his face. "What's wrong? Why you are so angry at Loki? You can't blame him what happened in Asgard, it wasn't his fault." you told him gently. "I know it isn't his fault!" he grumbled a bit. You looked at him strangely now, you didn't quite understand. "Then why are you acting like that? Have something happened?" you started to be more concerned about him. Thor didn't say anything and just stared at floor. "Thor...?" you asked softly and took few steps forward. Then he lifted his head up and looked straight to your eyes. He started walking towards you slowly. "Y/N.." he whispered gently as he got closer to you.

And then out of nowhere he leaned down and kissed you. You backed off fast and were shocked. Very very shocked. "What..? Thor, you can't just do that..!" you raised your voice a bit, still shocked about what he just did. "Well, I'm sorry I still have feelings for you!" Thor grumbled you back with teardrop falling down on his cheek. "But you still can't just kiss me! I'm with Loki!" you told him little angrily. Thor sighed deeply. "Yeah I know that! Do you even know how hard is it for me to watch you to kissing and cuddling each other all around the tower?! It's exhausting! I love you Y/N, and I bet he hasn't ever even said that to you! Do you know how much better I could be for you? I could protect you and I would never ever let anything happen to you! Don't you get it? I would be so much better option than him! So please, choose me.." he said hurting, heartbreaking tone in his voice, while he looked at you with tears falling downs on his cheeks. You tried to hold your tears and not fall apart. "Thor... you just can't make me choose between you two. It's not fair! Besides I'm already with Loki...
I love you Thor, so much. And I'm so so sorry that you have to live with that on your shoulders. I'm so sorry.." you told him softly and breaking voice as you looked at him in the eyes. He looked back down on his feet and nodded. "Well.. if that is your decision. But remember one thing, I will always be here for you. Even when he breaks your heart, I won't turn my back on you, yellow one, I would never.." Thor told you softly and then slouched back to his room leaving you there standing alone.

You let finally your tears fall down. Your heart was broken, seeing Thor like that broke your heart. It hurted.

Then you headed to Loki's room. You were shocked and abashed. Million different emotions ran through your body as you opened Loki's door. "Y/N, darling? Is everything alright?" Loki asked you straight away when he saw your tears. "No... everything's fucked up." you told him with more tears falling down on your cheeks. "No, darling. I'm sure, whatever it is, we can fix it together." he told you gently and placed his hand on your cheek. "No, no... Loki I have made a mistake." you said and backed off from him. He looked at you concerned. "Thor... he... he kissed me." you struggled and looked into his eyes. "What..?" Loki said confused and hurted. "I'm sorry I..." you were starting but couldn't finish because Loki was already heading angrily towards Thor's floor. "Loki wait! Don't go there!" you shouted after him but he didn't listen. You started running after him.

Loki was already knocking on Thor's door, when you got to him. "Go away!" Thor yelled behind the door. "Get the hell out of there, you oaf! You kissed Y/N!!" Loki yelled at him more furious than ever before. Thor opened the door and walked out of the room. Immediately Loki grabbed Thor and threw him straight to the wall. "How dare you to touch her!! You have no rights to do that! I'm gonna kill you!" Loki grumbled at him. Thor stood up from the ground and looked at you first and then Loki. "Haven't she told you yet?" Thor grumbled. "Tell me what..?" Loki growled back at Thor. "That I like her. Wasn't it obvious yet?!" Thor growled to Loki, stopping him for attacking at him. "What?" Loki asked confused and looked at you. "I'm so sorry.." you whispered to Loki and you could even see how he tried to fight back his tears. But then Thor turned Loki's attention back on him. "You know I would be a lot better for her, I could at least keep her safe!"
"Shut up!" Loki yelled at him and attacked again. They were fighting against each other aggressively. You tried to stop them by yelling at them by they didn't listen. "Please stop!! Please!" you cried and yelled at them while they were still fighting.

Then you decided to run right between their fight, and used your power to separate them to different sides of the hallway. They both flew across the hallway and slammed right against the walls. "Stop! Both of you, now!" you grumbled at them. Loki and Thor looked at you, both full of bruises and anger. "I will never... forgive you." Loki growled at Thor and walked away. You ran after him.

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He went straight to his room, you right behind him. "Loki..." you whispered making him stop. "Why didn't you tell me?" Loki asked you and turned on you. Tears were falling down on his cheeks. "I'm so sorry, I was supposed to... but then I.." you struggled. "...decided not to.." he completed you sentence.
"No, Loki... I wanted to tell you earlier. But I also wanted to protect Thor. You didn't meant to find out about it this way." you told him your voice full of hurt. "It looks like I wasn't supposed to find it out at all." he sighed and more tears fell down on his cheeks. "No, of course you were. I just didn't know when or how. Loki, I only want you, you know that right?" you tried to convince him.

He sighed deeply. "Do you have feelings for him?" Loki asked before he could answer to your question. "What..?" you asked confused and took few steps forward. "Do you?" he repeated. "No! Of course not. I have feelings only for you..." you answered as more tears started to fall down on your cheeks. Loki was silent. He looked at you hurting and heartbroken. He nodded and sighed as he dried tears from his cheeks. "Okay.. darling I believe you. But..." he softened his voice and lift his eyes back on you. "I don't blame you for what Thor did, or said. It isn't your fault that he likes you... But it hurts me that you didn't tell me about it. You lied to me.." he said calmly and softly. "I know..." you whispered. "And I regret it so so much. I'm so sorry, I should have told you. I really should've." you added with hurting and regretting tone in your voice.

"I... I have to leave Y/N, for awhile. I can't be here, not now. I need some time." Loki told you gently and walked up to you. You looked at him little shocked but understanding. "I understand... I want only the best for you. And if leaving is right now the best option for you, then you need to go. And I want you to know it's okay..." you said quietly and looked down on your feet. Loki lifted your head back up and hugged you tightly. "I'm sorry my darling Y/N." he whispered to your ear still hurting. "No, you don't have to be." you whispered him back and then reached his eyes with your own. "I will be here, waiting for you." you told him softly as you placed your hand on his cheek. Loki smiled a little and then leaned forward to kiss you. It was long, and you didn't want to let go of him. But you had to, it is best for him right?

Loki let go of you and took few steps back. He looked into your eyes as he teleported away. He just vanished.. just right in front of your eyes. You broke down on the floor with tears falling on your cheeks now even harder than before. It hurted you to let him go.. it fucking hurted so much. You just cried there, alone, in his room without him.