It get's better! MHA/BNHA X reader

(This is a minni chapter to set up the next major one and is not integral to the story, but I would greatly appreciate it if you read it anyways because one part of it accidentally became something I'm proud of. If you do choose to skip this chapter, which I don't blame you for seeing as it has taken twenty-seven-ish pages over nine-ish chapters for (Y/N) to meet one of the love interests and their interactions weren't even romantic, there will be a T.L.D.R. at the end so you can read the next chapter that I will be releasing after I post this one with a bit more context.)

I slowly walk up the stairs of the complex my apartment is in as I try to process the events that just happened. I just met Katsuki Bakugou, King Explosion Murder, The Giant Angry Pomeranian himself in an alleyway. I have his number and he admitted that he doesn't mind being around me, which I think is the closest you can get to him calling you his friend. I forgot that this isn't my home, I forgot I don't belong here. I changed things, what do I do now?

I arrive at the door of my apartment and open the door to see Momma has already started putting dinner on the table. I walk through the door and slip my shoes off while looking at the white fluffy slippers that are neatly placed with their toe against the wall. I'm fairly certain that they're intended for me to wear, I normally prefer to go barefoot but this is Japan, so I slip them on.

"Butterfly, you're home!" Momma says as she walks over to give me a hug, "You had me so worried when you didn't get back when you said you would!" I feel a pang of guilt, I went against my word and now I'm keeping the real reason I did so a secret from her. "Come sit down, dinner's on the table. I'm going to tell Izuku to come out here now."

We are all at the table eating some rice dish Momma made when Izuku pipes up, "So you made a friend while you were out?"

"Uh, ya. I did." I say trying to sound truthful, "We got off on the wrong foot, but ended up talking for a bit and becoming friends." That's not a lie, that really is what happened, just a bit toned down.

"What's his name?" Izuku asks me. Oh, Bloody Nora, I hoped they wouldn't ask that question.

"He said his name was Bakugou." I smile, trying my hardest not to be suspicious. I know it might sound stupid, but I'm worried of how they'll act if they knew I befriended Katsuki. Izuku's eyes widen slightly and he starts muttering. I can't make out most of the words he's saying, but it's along the lines of "Why is Kachan acting nice". I snap my fingers in front of his face and he comes back to the world outside his head.

"Ah, sorry! I was doing it again, wasn't I?" Hero apologizes.

"Nah, it's ok." I say, "It's better than what I do sometimes, at least it's easy to tell when you're lost in your head."

"What do you mean by that, butterfly?" Momma asks. I think for a moment before saying,

"I tend to space out a lot, it comes with A.D.H.D., I get lost in my own head and it's hard to break out of. It's really easy to think I'm just ignoring you when it happens." Momma looks at me confused, "Um, it's rather hard to explain, I think it would just be better to show you what it looks like."

I look at the bit of wall between Momma and Hero and let myself zone out. The world becomes slightly darker as the foreground and background merge slightly, small details get lost in the solid colors. My eyes see things, but my brain isn't processing what they are. My breath steadys and calms me down.

It's always peaceful when I choose to go into this state. My body and mind disconnect letting my imagination run wild. Here I can do anything unrestricted by my physical limitations or the rules of reality, escaping the monotony of my day-to-day life.

When I get sucked into my own head, it's a very different story. When I get dragged in, the voices get loud. I'm worthless, I'll never amount to anything. My presence is as meaningless as my absence. I'll never make an impact on anyone. The sea of negative thoughts sends crashing waves that drag me under, leaving me gasping for air as I struggle to the surface of my subconscious again and again. I flail around sporadically as I desperately try to keep my head above water and not succumb to my fears and insecurities. No buoyant objects float in the waves to ade in my plight meaning my only hope of seeing the truth about myself and others perception of me is to wait out the storm being reliant on myself alone, even though my strength and resolve are almost completely depleted. Exhausted I slowly start to sink beneath the sea, no longer having the will to fight.

A hand is placed on my shoulder causing me to jump. My breaths are labored as I close my eyes and shake my head hoping to rid myself of the negative thoughts. I take a few calming breaths before meekly looking at the two people before and observing their concerned expressions.

"Sorry, I didn't mean for that to happen." I apologize, "I suppose it's apparent now that the emotions someone is feeling whilst being in their head can be known by observing their outward expressions."

"Are you ok Butterfly?" Momma asks with concern written across her face. I smile and nod before continuing to eat my now cold food.

A few minutes later I ask, "Hey Momma? Would it be a problem if me and my new friend hang out on Wednesday?" She thinks for a moment before giving me consent.

I lay down on the couch, my hair wet from the shower I took a few minutes before, with my eyes open staring at the clock. Today was rather eventful, leaving me with more questions than I had previously. Things I thought I knew about the world were false assertions. My future feels more uncertain by the day. I stare at the clock and try to collect my thoughts until I fall asleep.

(T.L.D.R.: (Y/N) gets home keeps Katuki's identity a secret from her adoptive family and feels bad about that, asks to hang out with her friend on wednesday and is granted permission.)