Always||Quackity

It was time. The moment I had been dreading.

"Well it's time for us to go" I say looking at Quackity, Karl and George who were staying with Quackity for another few days.

I said my goodbyes to George and Karl. They were the two boys who I really bonded with, aside from Alex.

Then I left the worst till last.

I felt my eyes tear up as we both stood and looked at each other.

As soon as he realised that I was crying he hugged me tightly. His hands caressed my hair whilst I tried hard not to get any more emotional than I already was.

"Im so thankful for everything you've done for me Alex. I'll never forget it"

"Woah woah woah you're acting like we'll never talk again. Miss girl you better face time me every day. Understood?"

I giggled wiping the excess tears and said "of course"

"Just let me look at you for a moment before you go" he says staring at me closely.

"I'll miss this" he says squishing my cheeks together.

"Stooop" I say

"Okay guys one last group hug" Tubbo shouts as we all gather together. I smiled knowing how happy these people made me. As I looked around me all I wanted was to just stay in the moment.

We finally headed off onto the plane. The flight back was definitely not as enthusiastic as the flight there. Even Tommy seemed pretty upset and he hardly ever actually showed emotions.

Once we were finally in England we were of course greeted by... rain. Perfect.

I had like a million texts from Alex asking how I was and whether We landed safely.

*

A few days have passed since we arrived in England. Me and Alex face time whenever we can but he tried to spend the last few days he had with George and Karl and I didn't blame him.

I was hoping that now that I was far from him this feeling would go away. But I want him even more. I don't want to be just friends. But I was the one who decide to be and I kept reminding myself why. I replayed all the memories in my head of the laughter and love. I didn't want to lose that. I didn't want to lose my best friend.

I was currently Streaming with Nikki and Minx who I had still kept great contact with. We were doing a chill stream talking about the funny stories of the dream SMP and other streamers meeting up. Some parts we didn't mention (like the whole Fundy and Quackity situation).

Then the chat started blowing up as a certain Dream joined.

"Oh dream is here" Nikki casually says

"Hi Clayyyy" I sing

"Minx and Y/n Check discord ASAP" he comments

We look at the screen really confused. I grab my phone and go on discord.

You have been invited to Dream SMP

"Is this Fucking real?" Minx shouts excitedly

"Oh my god" I also shout

The comments were now blowing up.

I was aware that for the past few days there has been a trend on Twitter
#puty/nondreamsmp but I didn't think that much would come out of it. I never asked to be on the server since my YouTube channel was a complete different genre. I was very much into Minecraft but I wondered whether I would be able to balance both Minecraft and Asmr. My Asmr channel had now way over a million subscribers but i considered marking a channel for my gaming videos instead of just having them on twitch.

"Tommy!" I scream and wait a few seconds.

"What's up" the tall child walks in holding a piece of toast.

"Hi Tommy" Nikki says in her sweet innocent voice

"Hello Nihachu"

I immediately showed him my phone.

"WHAT?"

"I'm calling dream right now" he shouts storming out.

"Oops" I turn back to the screen.

This was a great opportunity and made sense since I was friends which basically everyone in the whole server now and dream seemed to be impressed with my gaming.

If he asked me this a few months ago, I would've said no there and then on the spot. But things have changed now. I actually understood. I understood how much this meant to people. I've grown to love gaming and the people. It was an amazing community.

That trip to America changed everything.

I left the stream, leaving the viewers with many questions. But I had to figure this out in private.

"Are you sure that this is what you want y/n? You have to be dedicated to it okay? I talked to Dream and Wilbur and they planned a big role for you in the server. Can you actually balance your whisper shit with gaming?"

His doubtfulness was starting to hurt me. He didn't believe in me. This really started to trigger me and I wanted to show him that I'm perfectly capable of managing 2 YouTube channels.

"Tommy what is this really about? Are you jealous that I'm joining your friend group?"

"ITS WEIRD Y/N. I feel like this will just cause problems with us and our bond. I don't like to mix family and business"

"Look we've played Minecraft together before. It's exactly like that so just don't think of it as business but as pleasure"

"I'm just worried about you y/n. It's not easy. You'll blow up even more than you already have. There will be hate"

"You're forgetting that I'm the older sibling. I look out for YOU. if you really have such a massive problem with me joining then I won't. It's all up to you now" I declare.

"Of course I want you to join. I just don't want to make sure your making the right decision" he says hugging me. I hated that he was so much taller than me. Giant.

"Thank you dipshit" I smile.