Better than the fanfictions // Daniel Seavey // Finished

A loud honk from our own tourbus made me wake up for the second time that day. This time I was laying back and safely in my boyfriend's bunk with his arms tightly around me.

Maybe a bit too tight, leaving me, not able to get up, with my nose near his somewhat sweaty armpit with the unpleasant smell triggering my senses.

Outside, I heard the noise of a screaming crowd and I knew that we had arrived at the venue so it had to be about lunch time right now.
I looked over at Brian, who was laying there, drooling on his pillow with an opened mouth. I twitched my face and pulled a bit away.
He had looked more handsome than this before.

No wait I couldn't think like this. Not now we were together again. I had to try and remember again how I felt at the start of our relationship. If only that feeling had been stronger than how I feel about my idol right now.

I sighed and quickly placed a kiss on Brian's cheek before carefully slipping out of his grip.
I picked a pair of panties and slipped it on. Then I stepped out of bunk, the hoodie Daniel gave me yesterday night still covering my bare chest and thighs.

I walked over to the front of the bus and opened one of the windows to wave at the screaming crowd, getting even louder squeels back and I predicted that the majority of this crowd would have a sore throat tomorrow morning. With a laugh I pulled my head back inside and walked further to the kitchen. First coffee before I could really start this last day of tour.

And just when I held a cup of warm, gold colored liquid in my hands, I started wondering where the boys were hanging out this morning, when one of them gave me a surprise attack by pulling his strong arms around my waist, making me almost drop my coffee by doing so.

I turned around and saw Daniel standing there with a big grin on his face. "Woops sorry didn't mean to scare you."
With my free hand I gave his chest a playful hit. "Yes you did, shut up."

The smile on his face softened into a more caring expression when he looked at me. "How are you doing today, considering last night."
I sighed and couldn't help but roll my eyes when my thoughts went back to Brian and the wonderful night I had spent with Daniel yesterday. Our chapter was closed now, so I told myself. I didn't make up with Brian to fall straight back into Daniel's tempting arms.

Yet, the smile on his face fits him so well and while he watched me like that, I couldn't bring myself to frown.
"I'm alright."

My eyes were locked with his for a few seconds before his gaze went down to my lips and he started leaning in to kiss me. My mind immediately went back to Brian and I quickly brought my cup of coffee up to take a sip and instead of Daniel's sweet lips I tasted bitter black coffee.

The blue eyed boy kept smiling, clearly not taking the hint and instead he planted a soft kiss on my forehead.
"You look great." He pointed out my stolen outfit "That hoodie suits you well."
I giggled. "I know. It looks a lot better on me than it does on you."
"I'm not sure if that's true but alright."
I laughed a little in reply.
Then he leaned closer again and mumbled underneath his breath, something that made me drip into my panties. "I bet you're not wearing anything underneath it..."

I bit my lips and pushed him away again, quickly glancing towards the door to check if maybe Brian woke up already and was watching us.
"Stop it Daniel I'm just trying to drink my coffee."
He laughed and stepped away. "But I was right, right?"

The door suddenly opened and I looked over, while my heart skipped a beat, to see Corbyn walk in. "Right about what?"
I breathed out in relief. "Nothing." I chuckled and glanced over at Daniel. "I'm going to get dressed now."

"Oh can I watch?" Daniel smirked "Shut up, you fuckboy." I laughed.
Corbyn looked from Daniel to me and back to Daniel with a lifted up eyebrow. "I'm not even going to question this."
"Good." I smiled as I turned around and walked back to the bunks.

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I sat on the edge of the stage with my notebook on my lap and sighed. The lyrics I wrote yesterday now seemed so personal. My love for Daniel was clearly written on the lines. In poetry and methaphores but the big picture was him and how we went from me admiring him from afar, to this whole complicated love triangle.
I already knew that some of the fans wouldn't like it for me to put my heart out in a song the way I did or to sing about me and Daniel.
It scared me slightly.

Behind me the boys were doing their souncheck and what am I was loudly echoing through the room. It would be strange to be back home and not have them around anymore. To not walk into them harmonizing in the kitchen or playing Fortnite in the back of the bus.
And the shows... oh how I would miss standing on such bid stages and playing for large crowds of people.

I stared in front of me at the now empty concert Hall. Less than an hour and the lucky first people in the front of the line would get to walk in.
My eyes went over the back where security was setting up everything. The spot lights that pointed to the stage were changing colors on a rhythm that didn't really match with the music yet.
I knew it would once again be a wonderful show tonight.

"What are you writing?"
Daniel's voice woke me up from daydreaming and I realised that the music I was hearing was instrumental, meaning that the boys were done. The blue eyed boy peeked over my shoulder to try and subtly catch a glimpse of the rhymes on my paper but before he got the chance to, I closed my notebook and gave him a dirty look. "Be patient. The rest ain't going to hear it before the show either."
"But I'm your friend and I wanna give you some feedback or something." He tried again and reached for my book but once again I pulled it away and laughed. "No Daniel, you'll have to wait untill tonight."

He let out a sigh and sat down next to me with his face to the empty pit. "Fine.. I didn't want to look at it annyway."
I rolled my eyes. "Toddler." I scoffed.
"Call me what you want but we both know that you're going to miss me most out of all things when this is over and you're back home." Daniel grinned, knowing he was right. "But don't worry. Next time we need someone to join us on tour, you will be the first one we'll think about."

A smile curled over my face. Once again I realised that I was so lucky to ever have this opportunity. Something that started as blackmail, had turned out to take my carreer as a musician up to a higher level. "That would mean the world to me."

Daniel and I sat there for a little while, next to each other, staring into the hall while chatting about a couple of pointless tings, until Jon came and called for Daniel to come and take some interviews, which I gladly joined and observed from behind the camera. And although I tried my best not to, I just couldn't keep myself from making eye contact for seconds long with Daniel's distracting, ocean blue eyes. That would give some interesting footage for the video, one of the bandmembers who kept staring at the side, but neither of us really bothered.

After the small amount of interviews, the hours that rested us before the show officially started, passed in a blink of an eye and before I realised, it was time for me to get on stage already.

My hands felt more shakey than usual when I wrapped them around the fret board of my guitar. The thought of putting my heart out in front of thouzands wasn't the most comforting thought but once I stepped onto the stage with wobbly knees, I told myself that there was no going back. I said a quick introduction about myself in the mic, like I've done at the other shows as well, and started playing my usual songs.

The nerves in my throat were terrible and pulled a few stupid voice cracks in the songs I normally sing effortlessly. And just when I started to calm down, someone told me through my earbuds that my 10 minutes almost passed and that I had to start the last song in order to keep up with the schedule, which made the adrenaline rush all through my veins again.

With a slightly shaking hand, I played the first two chords as I leaned closer to the microphone. "As you all might know, today is my last day on this tour."
The audience became quiet and I was afraid that they were able to hear my heartbeat, pounding in my chest. I cleaned my throat and continued. "So I decided to bring to you my newest song. I hope you enjoy. This is Better than the fanfictions."

The screaming crowd gave me a little boost of confidence.
I took a deep breath.
And started playing.