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9 - "Talking stuff through"

However, even when those past two days were really boring, I did notice something. Finland was looking at me a lot more than usual. Well, kinda. She is here for a very short time, but it still creeps me out. We are not even friends, so what is she doing.

It was chemistry now, class I don't understand at all. We were learning some new stuff, and like always, I never understand them.

Haiti ( the professor ) : „So students, meanwhile you will study this new stuff I gave you, I also have a new thing for you to work on! It will be a group project. You will be separated into groups of 2 countries each, and make things about specific substance! Now I'll tell you how the groups are parted.."

Wow this professor just loves us, giving us not only new stuff to learn but also a group project! To People like me it's a death sentence.

Canada got to be with Japan, pretty lucky for him. Now it was time for me to know who I got, I was just hoping it won't be a certain person I was trying to avoid

Haiti „Next group is : Russia and

Finland! "

Fuck my life.

• after the school •

Finally everything was over and I could go into my dorm peacefully. I was surprised Finland didn't come to me talking about the project yet. I hope she will not. I'll rather do it myself than with her. I want to avoid her at all cost.

Finland : „ Russia? Can we talk about the project a little? Please?"

I jumped from my locker looking at Finland with shock. That little-

Finland : „ I just wanted to tell you that maybe we can do it later today? So that we will both have it done and you won't have to spend that much time with me. I know you want it to be done as quickly as possible, so I just want to make you a favor..."

She looked at the ground, looking a bit sad.

Honestly, it was true I wanted to have the project done as soon as possible, and it is true I want to avoid her. But seeing people sad makes me angry. I hate when people are sad because of me, poeple being sad is a trigger to past events I have been through, and I especially don't want to do the same mistake. Not to a person who was the first one who I made sad. Not again.

I took a deep breath , and finally gave her my response.

Russia : „Hey, Finland. Look at me."

She did.

Russia : „We will do the project later today, at your house, in two hours. So around 3 PM. And I'll stay a bit longer , maybe we can watch a film or I don't know what you do last days. Just something to clear our heads after the project. Does that sound good?"

I smiled a little to reassure her. Her eyes lit up and she was excited from my answer. Then her face fell down again.

Finland : „ I'm happy you want to stay a bit longer but, I don't want to force you into it. I seriously don't."

Russia :„You are not pressuring me into anything, don't you worry. I will come over, we will do the project and then watch a film to clear things up ok? Just I don't know where you live"

Finland : „Oh, sure! I forgot , sorry. I'll text you the address to your phone notes if I can?"

Russia : „Oh sure, here you go"

I gave her my phone and she opened notes app to write me her address there. I really wanted to avoid her, I was scared of being friends again. But we have a project to do, and I don't want to make poeple sad. This was the only reasonable option.