falling for you | emily prentiss x reader

This song fits perfectly with this chapter and was my main inspiration for the whole Paris plot line so I really suggest listening to it :)
it's even called Emily like cmon it couldn't be more fitting

-TW mentions of scars-

Spencer's pov:
You had landed in Paris over an hour ago and had finally made it to the hotel that y/n was staying at. You had gone to the apartment that her and Emily had shared back home in Virginia before leaving and packed the rest of her clothes into a suitcase since you guessed that she didn't have anything with her.

You had gotten an extra key from the reception and were now looking for the right room. After a lot of walking and asking around you finally found room number 213. You opened the door and stepped inside putting your bag on the floor along with the suitcase you had brought for her.

"y/n?" You called out without getting a response which made you a bit worried.

You walked inside and went to the bedroom where you saw her curled up into a ball on the bed. Her eyes were closed and her face was a bit red and puffy from crying. You walked over to the bed and sat down placing a hand on her shoulder to wake her.

"y/n" you whispered making her slowly open her eyes. She sat up and wrapped her arms around you and you did the same.

"I've missed you so much" she whispered pulling you closer to her.

"I've missed you too" you said in a soft tone rubbing her back gently.

She pulled away after a few minutes. You could see the hurt in her eyes which made your heart drop. She deserved so much better than this.

Y/N's pov:

You looked down and turned your hands over revealing your palms that had dried blood smeared all over them. Fuck

Spencer had noticed your hands and let out a sigh, giving you a sad look.

"I'm sorry I was just overwhelmed and I wasn't thinking I-" you started but he cut you off.

"Hey I'm not mad I'm just worried about you and I don't want you doing that" he said gently closing your hands bring it then together and planting a gentle kiss to them. He was always really sweet and understanding and you loved him for that.

"I haven't done that in over a year Spence, not even when I thought Emily was dead. I mean I wanted to but I didn't but yesterday..." you tried explaining.

"It's okay, it's just me I wouldn't judge you im just worried, can you at least let me clean that for you?" he asked in a soft and comforting tone. You nodded slightly in response as he got up from the bed and walked into the bathroom to find a first aid kit.

After a few minutes he returned and sat down in front of you and pulled out some sterile wipes to clean the cuts with. He gently held your hand while he cleaned your palms with the wipes. You didn't even flinch because the pain you felt in your heart made you numb to everything else. When he was done he threw the wipes away and sat back down.

"How are you feeling?" He asked.

"Kinda numb I guess. I just never imagined this happening" you sighed.

"I don't think anyone did...I still can't believe it" he said in a low tone.

"Can you tell me more about what happened? It might be good for you to get it off your chest." He suggested and you nodded your head in response.

"Well it all started with a weird phone call in the middle of the night. I was thirsty so I got up to drink and then I heard her talking with someone on the phone out on the balcony. As soon as I came up behind her she hung up the phone and when I asked her about it she told me she was getting updates about the case from JJ. I didn't think anything of it then I just assumed she was telling the truth. Then yesterday we went out for drinks and she said she needed to go to the bathroom and when she didn't return I went to find her and when I walked into the bathroom I saw her kissing some tall red headed woman. Turns out they've been hooking up for two months now at the same time as I was drinking almost every day to numb the pain of losing her. God I literally told her everything about my past and yet she goes and does this to me?