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🧖🏾‍♀️inspiration : Fool of me , by Meshell Ndegeocello🧖🏾‍♀️

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In which this is part 2
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Mark🧖🏻

It's been 2 weeks .. the divorce papers had been sitting on the table the entire time because I just cannot bring myself to sign them . I know what I did was wrong and I have no excuse for it .. I really fucked up .. y/n was the best thing that ever happened to me .

I slouched deeper into the couch , covering myself with my thoughts .. until someone knocked on the door . I ignored it until they kept knocking . Then I got up . "Who's there?" I questioned . "Johnny" he said and I immediately opened the door seeing my best friend on the other side with a scowl on his face . He's really disappointed in me .. but I really did fuck up .. I'm disappointed in my damn self .

He came in and closed the door behind him . "Did you sign the papers yet?" He asked and I shook my head no . "Sign them now , where are they?" He asked walking through the house . "Damn not even a hey , how you doing .. have you eaten .. showered .. nothing" I said and he turned and looked at me . "Mark I have nothin to say to you . You know I don't tolerate cheating . That shit is so low and stupid . If you didn't wanna be with her anymore you could've left . That's the smart thing to do . Now sign the fucking papers so I can take them and get the fuck out of here before I hit you in the mouth ." He said and i scoffed and walked over to the table where the divorce papers are .

I pulled them out not even bothering to read through them and just signed . After I did I put them back in the envelope and as I was about to hand them to him I felt a tench in my heart . I felt like I was losing the best thing that's ever happened to me . Realization is hitting now . I fell down to the floor and clutched my chest with tears riming my eyes . Johnny looked down at me and sighed . "Mark you did this to yourself , maybe next time don't be a dumbass" he said and I just stayed right were I was as he walked out the door .

Fuck dude . This hurts like a bitch .
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Johnny 🧖🏻

I walked back into my house placing the papers on the table and taking my jacket off . I walked back towards my room to check if y/n had got out of bed yet . To no surprise she hasn't . "Y/n you've gotta get up , I know you're hurting right now but this isn't healthy" I stated pulling the covers back . She looked up at me and held out her arms for a hug . Since the incident happened she's becoming really clingy .

I got in the bed with her hugging her tightly . Now this situation could be good for y/n because shes in need . But really the reason why I'm so pisses about the whole situation is more because of I've always had feelings for y/n but she's always been marks girl . I'm not the type of guy to make a move on my best friends girlfriend . I got closer with y/n and still the feelings never went away .

A year before the marriage and two years into it .. I still have feelings for her . I was knocked out of my thoughts when y/n kissed my chin . "What're you doing" I asked as I pulled back and took my arms from around her . "I really need a release Johnny , and I don't want you to feel like I'm using you because of what I'm going through or that I'm just being a hoe . But I want you" she said looking me up in my eyes .

I thought about it , this is so wrong . But my feelings are mixing right now .. my mind is racing .. my heart is beating fast . Some would describe this as the anticipation you feel just before you do something that you know is wrong . "I want you too y/n but now isn't the right time for this" I said and she just looked at me .. but a mans desire for the woman he wants is probably the strongest thing in this world . It's hard to deny that or hold it back . I give in .

I kissed her lips deeply and got on top of her wrapping my hand around her throat . "Just this one time , until everything is over" I whispered softly in her ear .