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I sat beside grandpa , rubbing his hand continuously as I shed tons of tears beside him.

No one was here. All of them dispersed to their room after a sudden tiring day. Grandpa was discharged a few hours ago. Now it was only him sleeping and me waiting for him to cure.

I was checking up on the clock for he needed to be injected insulin syringes and I needed to call a nurse for checking his diabetes who was currently standing outside the room.

I held his hand and sat back, my head resting on the bed head. I closed my eyes with a drop of water that fell off my Left eye.

Suddenly I felt him stirring. I immediately sat up and looked at him. He slowly opened his eyes, which were really weak as well.

"Grandpa?" I called him with the sweetest tone as I sniffed.

"Bella , honey?" His voice was trembling which made my tears fall more faster. But I quickly wiped them out. I never dreamt of seeing him like this , in this kind of state.

I swallowed and coughed off the mucus in my throat which formed overtime and answered. "Yes grandpa?" I faked a smile.

"H-how are you my darling?" Again here it was . His broken voice. I clenched my jaw to hold myself from breaking off.

"I am good. How are you feeling now paa?" I caressed his forehead as I bent my neck to look at him.

He coughed " what are those tears for?" He tried to smile. I was too slumped to notice that my eyes were watering again, doesn't matter how hard I clenched.

"Aah, I am just happy that you are curing" I smiled fakely back at him.

"Y-ou know that the truth is really hard to hide from me " he laughed which instantly turned into a deep cough which wasn't taking the name to stop. I quickly stood up and rubbed his back constantly.

"Hey hey be careful. Breath breath" I said breathless, panick stricken. But he gestured me to stop panicking with his hand.

Thank goodness, he stopped coughing and I helped him sit back as he sat up while coughing. No nurse or any kind of people were allowed to come until I asked. Strange . What if I ended being dead and they never came in because I didn't allow them? So weird type of rules. I swear I am going to change every single rules in this kingdom once I get ahold  of this throne and free all the people and slaves.

"S-see your old man isn't allowed to laugh anymore" he smiled.

"You'll soon be allowed again. I promise" I caressed his temples as I smiled back.

He rested his head on the bed head and sighed loudly. He said " aah darling ask people to buy a grave for me. There won't be much left sooner or later" he swallowed.

I gasped and furrowed my eyebrows. I got up in my knees ." What are you talking about" I placed my hand on his chest. He took that hand in his and tried to rub it but failed.

"You and I both know what we are talking about" he replied.

" Listen you say that ever again and the next thing you'll know that you lost your connection with saline bottle" I pointed my finger at him. He tried laugh but again he failed.

"We all know that I will not be here for a long time anymore" I tried to speak but he stopped me " let me say now. It's the reality. You know that as well. Don't cry over any of your loss. Because it is in your destiny. And always remember. Always remember to face your problems, your pain without any hesitation. Just feel it. And your bravery will make the others pay for what they have done. And one thing. Never forget to live. You need to live and face your reality" he said and I burst into to tears and hugged him tightly.

"I don't want to live in this reality" I cried out loud. "I don't want to. I never did" I hugged him as tightly as possible, totally forgetting this might hurt him.

I never wanted to see or feel the bad future before it arrived. To be honest I never wanted to face it. I guess no one does either. I always thought when it will happen, it will. But now it was becoming true. The nightmare was coming true. And I didn't want it. It was coming all together.

"Then create your own reality" he opined and I sat back, my hair stuck on my face by the tears.

I breathed sharply which stumbled in between twice for I cried out too much.

"H-how?" I sniffed and wiped my eyes.

"Just follow the things I said. And the only thing you need to do is Live. Existing isn't enough. Just do your old man a favor by living" I nodded with what he said.

"I promise you I will. I swear" I smiled and he did it back.

"And another favor, will you do it?" He took my hands in his. I nodded and said "anything for you."

"I always wanted to see my grandchildren get married. Beatrice Is too young for that. But I can keep hope for you before I peace off right?" He asked and it shook me.

Why marriage?

I swallowed " why marriage?"

"Because I want to see you live happily ever after with the love of your life . Just like dairy tales. So is there anyone your hearts going for?" He pumped me again.

I wasn't sure what I was going to answer. My mouth was depending what my heart was going to say. Even I was. I didn't know what my heart told my lips and for what it opened for " I T-" I was just going to answer when someone scooched in.

"Oh my Lord Thank God you woke up" said grandma.

Grandpa looked at me and whispered "I won't die until I get your answer". He kissed my temple and hugged grandma.

I don't have any idea where I was going. Not me actually. It's my heart.

Good lord I don't need any answers to dwell for.