Reality Check

Khushi's POV

It has been two years since I left that mansion. 2 years since my breakdown. 2 years since I stood up for myself. I thought it would be hard to move on. I thought no one would support me but I found a lot of support. Amma and bauji, who I thought would never support me, stood by me against the Raizadas who wanted me back and they didn't even care that they were jiji's in-laws. Nanheji and Lavanyaji held onto me the moment I stepped outside the Raizada mansion. I have to meet them at least once a fortnight or they get mad. I check the watch and smile seeing the time. They are gonna come anytime and as if on cue I felt two people hugging me. I immediately hug both the people back. Can anyone guess who?

Me (smiling) - Lavanyaji...Nanheji..

Both of them let go of the hug and smile widely at me.

Lavanyaji (smiling) - chamkili, you will never believe but this monkey FINALLY has the guts to propose to me...

I laugh at the comment and immediately congratulate them while Nanheji looks at Lavayaji with an annoyed expression.

Nanheji (annoyed) - have some shame... I am your fiance now... don't call me a monkey.. You witch.

Soon they start quarrelling over nicknames and I start to laugh. They are nearly 30 and are fighting like kids. I laugh seeing the arguments getting even funnier. I suddenly see a shadow watching me from far and smiling. I know exactly who it is, but am I giving him attention? No? I have seen him ever since I left my so-called house. He isn't giving me divorce, however, he is giving me the space I require. He is watching my every move but from far... I know that he has a lot of regret from his past, but I don't know if I should forgive him. Does he even deserve it at this point?

As I am thinking all this, a small child comes running to me, with a flower, saying 'sorry' and even a message. How many flowers has it been? Every day, a new flower and a new letter with a sorry message. I look at the paper which says, 'I know my sorry may not mean a lot to you at this moment. I know I have made a lot of mistakes in the past and I am not going to blame anyone, but myself for these mistakes. I know, asking you for another chance is being selfish and therefore, I will wait. I will wait until you can trust me. Until tomorrow, have a good and safe day Khushi. I love you. I smile at the child and put the letter in my purse.

Lavanyaji (annoyed) - another letter, chamkili, why are you even bothering with him?

Me (upset) - Lavanyaji, I am living my life. I have a supporting family, am successful in my business and even have good friends, however, I feel something is missing in my life and that's Arnavji. To be honest, I am hurt and I don't regret leaving him nor do I regret asking him for divorce, however, one mistake I did was fall in love with him. As you both are aware, falling in love isn't a crime but it makes a person weak. The person who you fall for could either be your strength or your weakness and depending on the situation, Arnavji is both for me. I have lived without him for two years and I can continue to do so... but my heart... it's yearning more and more for him. During my tough times, he has been there for me. He stood against his grandmother for me...

Nanheji (annoyed) - Khushiji, we know that he has done much for you but what about you? You rescued him from that Shyam... you took all the insults from your family and his family for your first marriage, while he... he stood there and let you take them... he called you his biggest mistake in life... he even ignored you for an outsider. Are all these reasons not enough?

Me (upset) - Yes, Nanheji they are enough reasons, and that's exactly why I am still avoiding him. My brain doesn't want to forgive him, because his sorries are meaningless but my heart... it's dying to be with him. It's dying to get a glimpse of him. The sorry notes he sends every day, not once has he forgotten about it. At first, I used to think like you guys, that he isn't worth it and I used to throw those notes in the bin but they never stopped coming. A new note, with a new apology and asking for a chance of redemption. I am not going to lie to you guys but I am melting... slowly. He is giving me the space I want and not forcing me to talk to him, which I never expected him to do. Even when we were arguing 2 years ago... he didn't physically hurt me, like I thought he would. He hasn't given up on me in these 2 years. He has changed and I could see it, both by his behaviour and the efforts, however, I am unsure as to how long this change will last for.