Anonymous me

My life has been a mess, a mess I created. I am a 16-year-old boy, 5'9, and studying in one of the top ten schools in our country. 3 months back in life, I was living in my own small, messy world in Assam.  I had a lot of good memories and bad memories connected to my previous school. You will get to know about them as the story proceeds. Life's complicated, way harder than clearing UPSC or SAT or any other exam for that matter. I know coming from a teen, you might say "what does a 16-year-old kid know about life." but trust me, handling a pregnant teen at 14 is nightmarish compared to the exams you give. So how about we start my messed-up life in a simpler story. 

You always think becoming a teen is amazing but it also beholds a lot of unwanted problems and fucking lot of fuckups. Well hiee, I'm Abhi and life's been a crazy roller coaster for me. Born on 13th November 2005 an okiesh looks and well-to-do marks, with an inter-school swimming champion record. With zero guidance and with a shattered heart, I recently left home. 

Life's been shit to me but let me tell you this, thing about love is that you can't avoid it, maybe for a little while or maybe fall out of love with a person but eventually, love is gonna get the best and of you. And trust me with this, it's the best feeling in the world. It's as if you're on top of the world and you don't care about anything else. But there is this one tiny problem with all this craziness with love. This is what comes once love starts playing games. Breakups, depression, anxiety, suicides, murder, and the worst, staying with the person you have fallen out of love with. It's tough living with a person who you hate but the thing about living with the person you once loved is on a whole another level. The life of a teen was way different 10 years ago but with all the technology and other development shit, the life of a teen is way more messed up and complicated than you think it is.

It had practically been a month since that incident and still, there weren't any texts or missed calls. I used to see her every day in school but not a single "hi" or UK maybe a how are u doing maybe. but nope, nothing. She has been totally ghosting me. I also tried going to her and talking to her a million times but her friends would just scoo me off. I know it was hard for her, but she should also consider the fact that I ran from medical shop to medical shop having the most embarrassing conversations with the chemists and the nurses. Why would she do this to me, I loved her. Love is like an intoxicating drug, the lesser you want to take, the more you will be taking in.