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emotions, talking, heartfelt conversations;

optimism, smiling, letting people know who I am;

allowing others to help, happiness, loving myself; 

I'm not good at those- never have been-

but maybe I can improve. 

maybe, just maybe

I'll be able to not flinch at the word 'dad' 

or not harm myself on purpose

or love who I am. 

improvement is what I want, 

what I strive for. 

I just hope it comes soon.