if you get lost ? | s.h

act two; scene three
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hawkins, indiana
the cabin
thursday november 01, 1984
7:30 a.m.

hopper had insisted on me having one of his triple-decker eggo extravaganza, but today just didn't feel like the day to digest all of that. i'd have to wait until he upsets el again to gorge on those waffles, which shouldn't be that long,

i had to start walking to school whenever hopper couldn't give me a ride, which wasn't that much of a bother, what was a bother was this weather. i could've been driving in the warmth of my beloved car, but it'd been around six months since it literally vanished.

i probably would've started working on getting my permit, but what's the point now without a car, and to be completely honest i would've never worked on getting my permit, because hoppers got my back.

my car disappearing is probably karma for all those times i got away with driving around, nothing that good lasts long with me.

regardless of my transportation situation, i was feeling the need to have something other than my mind inside of my head. it was exhausting to always be worrying and thinking. i didn't have any cassettes on me, so reena's audio would suffice.

it immediately jumped from reena introducing herself and the date of which she was recording, to her rambling about will and his disappearance. along the way mentioning the conspiracies about russian spies infiltrating us.

she seemed well aware of what had been going on last year, but when we all talked she played dumb about will's disappearance. claiming to only hearing rumors about him, and never even knowing what happened.

i'd only ever seen reena around this year, she was a year below the rest of us, but in a town so small i'd expect to have at least some recollection of her from when we were all in middle school. 

i had tons of memories that included mon and robin way before we became friends. even when i didn't know them i knew they were around and had a slight idea of who they were. i could never recall a time where reena was around.

i don't even distinctly remember being introduced to her, or meeting her. i think it was cher who had introduced her to us, or that's what i remember robin telling me.

one day she was just there at lunch. i'd been late that day and at first i thought she was invited by someone, but everyone at the table looked just as confused, so then i thought she was new and lost. she was sitting in my usual spot, so i stood to the side and greeted everyone, when she saw me her face turned in a way that made me uncomfortable, as if she recognized me.

"hey! felicity, right?" she said standing up to shake my hand, everyone's eyes shot to me, "yeah, i'm sorry, who are you?" i was  trying so hard to remember if i knew her from anywhere.

"i'm reena, we had art together in seventh grade," she made a clicking sound with her mouth, i still didn't remember her, but i didn't wanna seem like a bitch, so i pretended i did.

cher wasn't there that day, and reena had apparently told robin that cher invited her to lunch with us, and then mon told us that reena had said robin invited her, later we'd find out that reena had told cher that i had invited her, but by then we were already friends and really didn't care.

it was cold, as fuck.

i wasn't even listening to reena talk anymore, drowning her out in real life apparently translated to audio renditions of her. it's not that any of us dislike reena, we all enjoy her being around, it's just that she can be very judgmental and mean without being provoked.