Once One Sided

Let Go

Y/n pov:

I didn't know what to do or what to say, I was just laying here in the hospital bed.

My tears kept dripping, I'm in so much pain right now not just body, but emotionally as well

The sickening white ceiling from the hospital makes me wanna break down even more.

Kuchel and Kenny decided to go, my dad has an emergency business meeting and my mom insisted to stay, but I told her I'm fine she could leave.

"I'll be back here at ten, ok?" She kissed my forehead and left.

I'm just alone here.

I want to be alone.

Being the type of person who doesn't give up easily is exhausted specially when you know that what your fighting for is not worth it.

My words ate me. I kept saying that I won't give up on him easily, but I can't anymore. I'm done. I can't do it anymore.
I can't settle for crumbs that he's giving when I know to myself what I can bring to the table. He wanted divorce I'll give it to him. I sat up and tried to relax myself.

I reached at the side table where my bag is placed. I took my phone out to check the time it is, 8pm.

When I digged more in my bag I got a glance at my pregnancy test and the sonogram picture.

With my shaky hands, I tried to pick it up while my tears is falling from my eyes none stop.

"Baby, I'm sorry" I shed a lot of tears while looking at my baby's sonogram.

My heart skipped a breath when the door swinged opened revealing levi with roses and fruit basket in his arms.

All I could feel is anger and pain, he is the reason why my baby died, if he only believed me.

He didn't even try to protect me.

I looked at him, I use to love it when he looks at me now all I feel is pain.

He entered my room and put the fruits beside me. He tried to hand me the white roses, but I didn't accept it. I just stared at it.

If he only paid attention just a little bit, he'll know that I hate roses.

He sighed and put the roses beside me.

Are these for our baby who died because of him?My intrusive thoughts keeps saying to throw it at him.

I picked it up and threw it to him, my intrusive thoughts won.

He looked shock at my action, he picked it up and put it beside the table "Why are you here?" I asked coldly.

"I want to check if you're ok" he said making me pissed.

"You think I'm ok!?" I asked sarcastically while trying to console my anger.

"Y/n".

"Leave me, please" I pointed at the door.

"I'll stay with you" he said and sat in the sofa.

"I said get out! I don't need you, leave!" I said and threw the fruit and roses at the floor.

Levi pov:

I bought her white flower which means new start.

I entered her room and saw her holding the sonogram and pregnancy test with tears in her eyes she looked up and more tears slip out of her eyes.

I wish i could wipe it, I hope I can still make things right.

With my shaking knees i manage to walk towards her and placed the fruit basket in the bedside table.

My shaking hands reach for her so I could give her the roses. She looked at it and threw it. I was shocked when she did that.

She's never like that, she always appreciate small stuff or actions like this.

I picked it up and placed it beside the fruit basket.

"What are you doing here?" she asked coldly my heart started throbbing painfully.

Her sweet, southing voice, turned cold and emotionless.

"I want to check if your ok" I said and I saw her eyes watered again.

"Do you think I'm ok!?" she asked sarcastically.

I don't think that y/n. We just lost our baby and it's all my fault.

"Y/n" I called out.

"Leave me, please" she pointed at the door.

"I'll stay with you" I sat in the sofa.

"I said leave! I don't need you! Leave." She took the fruit basket and flowers and threw it in the floor.

"Y/n, please. I'm sorry" I tried to hug her, but she pushed me.

"Will your sorry bring my baby back?"I froze in my spot.

"Please y/n, I really want to give our marriage a shot" I was just cooling my mind, I really do wanna fix us, but I have to sort what I really feel. I wanna fix us.

Too much to ask? Yeah it is. Guilt is eating me whole.

I already have feelings for her, I just couldn't admit yet.

"I don't want to anymore" she said making my heart stop beating.

"Please y/n, let's try again, please."

"I can't anymore. I'm done. I give up." I felt my cheek wet

"Y/n please, I thought you will not give up on me? On us?"

"That was before, but now I'm done. I'm so done." I went to her and tried to hug her I felt a stabbing pain when she tried to push me, but I held her tighter.

"I'll sign those divorce papers as soon as I get out of this hospital" she declared.

"Y/n please, don't."

"Levi you were the one who wants it and you were the one that wants me to sign it" guilt ate me whole.

"You should leave, levi. let me go" she pushed me.

I knew that when I walk out of this room we're over.

We both know. It's dead end for the both of us.