Blocking You | Namjin

Sunday 2:12 PM

Seokjin: Namjoon.
We need to talk.

Sunday 2:31 PM

Joonie: Are you going to scold me?

Seokjin: Did you come to my apartment last night?
I sent you my address while I was drunk.
I deleted the message, but...
It said you read it.
But I didn't see any messages from you after that.
And the ones I sent aren't readable.
Did you see it?

Sunday 2:52 PM

Joonie: I saw it.
But I don't remember it.

Seokjin: Okay...

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Seokjin: I missed you.

Joonie: I know.

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Seokjin: Did you not miss me?
Was that wishful thinking?
I guess I didn't leave you on a good note...

Joonie: No, you didn't.

Seokjin: I'm sorry, Joonie.
For being mean, and for blocking you without giving you a chance.
I'm still uncomfortable with the idea of meeting you, even after a month, but...
I can lighten up a little...

Joonie: Could you be more specific?

Seokjin: I mean...
We can do things like...
Voice chat..and maybe facetime...

Joonie: Hm.

Seokjin: Do you...not want to?

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Seokjin: Joonie?

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Seokjin: Okay...
What do you want me to say?
I'm sorry that I left, and I blocked you for so long.
And I'm sorry that I came back all of a sudden, like everything would still be the same.
I don't know why I was hoping that it would be.
I'm really sorry, Joonie.
I won't ask you to forgive me for that.
But...
Can't you at least talk to me?

Joonie: I don't know what you want me to say.
You left me.
Blocked me and disappeared for a month.
How do you expect me to just pop back to the way I was immediately after you show back up?

Seokjin: I don't.

Joonie: It certainly seems like you do.
Look.
I'm not mad at you.
I just...want some answers.
Why did you decide to start talking to me again?
Why now?

Seokjin: I just really missed talking to you.
Do I need a reason to want to talk to you?

Joonie: You always made a big deal out of it, like you did.
Did you really text me just because you missed me?
I find it hard to believe.

Seokjin: Well...
There's a little more to it, but...
It's really personal.
I'd rather not go into depth about what's happened over the past couple weeks.
But...
Basically...
I guess after awhile, talking to you became a way to destress from everything going on around me.
Whenever I blocked you, I didn't have an outlet anymore.
I became a little depressed.
I really missed talking to you.

Joonie: You became depressed because you couldn't talk to me?
And you feel like I'm a stress reliever for you.
So...
Overall, you only unblocked me because it was for your own benefit.

Seokjin: Don't put it like that.
I missed you because you're my friend, too.
I'm really sorry I blocked you, Joonie.

Joonie: Whatever.

Seokjin: Joonie...

Joonie: Don't talk to me.
Just...let me collect my thoughts.
I don't know what to say to you.

Seokjin: Okay...

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