Forever Julia

"Mom you can't be serious about me changing schools again, especially not during senior year, I mean it's not fair!" I followed her around as she prepared for her business trip.

"I'm sorry honey I know it's a bit uncalled for but I can't leave you here all by yourself and even if I wanted to, child services won't let me because you're not legal yet." She stopped moving and put her hands gently on my chin, "Don't worry Julia. You're going to have the best time with your aunt I assure you."

Tears almost dropped from my eyes. The slight headache it gave me to hold it back in made it feel even worse. It's not like I didn't like my aunt, it's just the fact that since my dad died, I and my mom haven't even gotten the time to talk or have fun with each other like we used to. Its always work or nothing. She thinks that getting me all the Gucci bags in the world could buy my happiness but what I wanted the most was for her to stay. I wanted to tell her about how I missed dad so much.

"You know, sometimes it'll be better if dad were here and not you." I ran upstairs as the tears finally surrendered. I slammed the door hard as I heard my mom call for me worriedly. I knew what I said to her was a bit harsh and overboard but I just didn't care. She was going to leave as usual so what's the use.

*knocks*

"Julia please open the door so we can talk about this before I leave. Please I don't want to leave like this." I could only imagine the hurt she was feeling but I was hurting too. I laid on the bed in complete silence.

She spoke in a low tone signaling that she had given up her pleading. "Well your aunt will be coming to pick you up at six. I really do hope you know I'm doing this for you Julie I really do." I could hear her footsteps going downstairs. I cried my intestine out before I finally came to realise that this was my life and I could either drown in pain or make the best out of it. After all, my aunt is almost a carbon copy of my mom. The only difference is that my mom is older and a little thinner than her.

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After I finished packing the basic and not so basic items I needed, I just waited for my aunt to come get me. I had a feeling I wasn't going to stay at my aunt's house for long so I didn't pack. I didn't bother telling any of my friends I was leaving because we weren't that close due to my constant changing of schools so they wouldn't have cared anyway.

Or maybe I'm the one who thinks they won't care.

*doorbell*

I rushed downstairs to get the door. As I saw her I screamed and cried on her shoulder at the same time. "Aunt Evita!" I hugged her tightly as she did same. My feelings were making me very emotional at this point. I cried because I saw my mom in her and with everything that had been going through my mind lately, that hug really put a band aid on it.

"Oh my baby girl how are you? Its been so long. Your mom called and told me everything that happened." She stroked my hair as I teared up again looking at the perfectly tiled floors silently."

"Its okay if you don't want to talk about it but I think it's best if you call her and apologise for what you said you know? She'll also apologise too for sure but just try and call her okay?" She said in a soft calming tone which kind of made me realise that even though my mom was wrong for just leaving me like that, I shouldn't have said those hurtful words to her. She's probably hurting about dad as much as I am.

I mean that was her frickin husband.

I nodded agreeably to what she just told me as we finally let go of each other.

"Alright good let's get going then. Wester city is not a short drive." She chuckled as I smiled gently while wiping my tears and helped her carry all the bags to the car.

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The drive was pretty long and I slept like a baby most of the ride. Once we got to her apartment, it looked so comfortable and cozy. Since she was the only one living here, she didn't want to get a house too big for her. Unlike mom who keeps buying mansions every time we move.

Lol.

"Here we are make yourself at home and I don't mean that as an expression." She smiled at me.

I chuckled at her words. "But I'm serious Julia. Feel free here okay? I know moving a lot could take a toll on you at such a young age. I know I'm not your mom but just pretend like your home and enjoy the most of it." After she spoke I quickly gave her another tight hug and let go.

"Your room is right down there to your left."

"Okay. Thanks a lot aunt" I smiled at her.

"Aww don't mention it sweetie but, no parties though." We laughed as she walked into her room probably to take a shower.

"You don't have to tell me twice." I giggled. I wasn't really a fan of parties. They aren't fun to me and are way too loud for my liking. I can listen to music and read thousands of novels in my own fictional world without the smell of weed or alcohol. So why bother going to a party.

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After taking a shower, I instantly felt better and less irritated. The hot water calmed my curly haired scalp and eased my perfect brown skin. I decided to go make something to eat. My tummy felt like it was eating itself alive and I was getting weak. When I got to the kitchen I saw my aunt there. I guess she was already making dinner so I decided to help her.

"What are you cooking?" I gazed into the pot.
"I'm just making some stake dear."
"Mmm stake nice. I hope it tastes as good as it smells."

"I hope so too." She looked at me in a funny way.

"So you're starting school tomorrow at wester high.

"Yay another school". I said in complete and utter sarcasm. Honestly If I was paid a dollar for everytime I changed schools, I'd be a millionaire.

Okay I exaggerated a little there.

"I know its frustrating but at least you're staying in this one till you graduate. Think of it as a fresh start. Maybe you could even meet some cute boys huh." She said while giving me that same funny look and cooking her over burnt stake. I honestly wasn't hoping to meet a new guy because firstly I'm not interested in dating right now and secondly even if we did date which will never happen by the way, I'd probably just move again. Besides it's already senior year.

"Yeah sure." I scoffed.

"Do you want some stake before you go to bed?"

"I'll just have a taste." I said as I stabbed the stake with fork blowing on it slightly before eating.

Yuck!

It was way too salty and hard. I'm sure I didn't have to tell my aunt. The look on my countenance explained it all.

"Yum." I smiled awkwardly while trying not to spit it out from my mouth.

"It's bad isn't it?" She asked.

"Yes very. Maybe I'll just eat some leftovers in the fridge." We both laughed hard at how bad of a cook she was.

"I'll order next time for sure." She said as she walked away to her room.

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As I was laying on my bed trying to sleep, I couldn't help but think that I'm going to have to meet new people again. Not to talk of how much I missed my mom and dad. I was a little anxious began to breathe heavily. I quickly stood up and grabbed my inhaler from my bag to use it. As I felt my heart rate go back to normal again, I just decided to listen to music and sleep off to the next morning trying to be optimistic about school the next day.