My second go at life // Orsted x oc (Mushoku Tensei)

".....mother?" I let out.

She took my hand in hers, and I felt a throbbing pain come from my elbow. "Please, I beg of you." She cried as she held my hand to her chest stretching my arm out, hurting me even more.

"Why?" I asked.

"Just die! Please!" She yelled, and I felt the pain leave my arm.

The reason the pain was gone was that my elbow had fully snapped off, and all of my muscles from that arm had got shredded off beforehand. But what I was focused on was my mother's face. She was grinning happily at me, at my pain and suffering. My own blood soon flowed into the vision of my only eye left which was the nearest to the ground.

Why? Why did I do wrong? I thought I was finally going to stop being alone all the time. I had my first hug it felt so warm but I just feel cold now.

Earlier this day, I was the happiest I have ever been. "Die! Die!" I yelled as I spammed the buttons on my console and I won the fight making me cheer. "I did it! I kicked you to..."

I went silent as I looked down at my bed, I poked my useless legs and sighed. My legs used to move when I was a baby, but now, I can't move them at all.

I never knew what it was like to walk. I have always been here at the hospital since my family can't support me at home, so I'm looked after here.

I'm the oldest child, and I have never met my younger siblings because I have always been stuck here. I have seen pictures of them, but I bet they haven't seen any of me.

I met my father once...never again. I see my mother quite often, but she seems indifferent to me, but that's better than hate.

Anyway, I have my games, so I'm fine, for now. I don't know anything else other than this.

My door opened, and I saw my mother standing there, I was shocked to see her. "Mother?"

"I'm here to visit." She informed me and I was a little nervous as she sat down next to my bed. "What is that?"

I looked down at my console. "Oh, it's a fighting game, the nurses said this was donated here and I have been playing it for ages! Fighting games are amazing! They go wham! Bam- sorry, that was a bit much." I apologised hoping she doesn't hate me.

She smiled a little making me grin brightly that I finally made her smile. "How old are you now?" She asked me.

"Oh, I'm 18." I answered.

"I see." She looked surprised. "You're very small."

Yeah, the nurses love to say how I have the height of a 12-year-old, that's because I haven't been able to even go out. I could use a wheelchair, but even my bones are too weak and can break easily from falls so they don't want to take the chance.

"Would you like to go outside?" She grinned.

"No way! Really?! Like France! That's where I shot someone's head off!" I exclaimed. "I mean in my game."

She slowly got up and picked me up shocking me. "Don't you want to put me in a wheelchair?" I asked her.

"You weigh nothing." She responded immediately with a sharp tone, but it didn't seem to be aimed at me.

I hugged her, and it felt so warm making me cry a little, I have never had any contact like this before, it's so nice.

I relaxed into her hold, and I kept silent to not irritate her since I didn't want this to end. I was in awe at all of the new sights even seeing the entrance of the hospital was new for me.

I did notice that some people were giving us dirty looks, but they were actually aimed at my mother.

We finally went outside and it was so. "Green!" I exclaimed surprising her.