My second go at life // Orsted x oc (Mushoku Tensei)

Chapter 1

"Just green?" She mumbled.

"There are other colours, but I have really never seen so many of them!" I grinned. "Since the last time I had gone out was when I broke my arm...I wanted to touch the ant and then probably murdered it with my body."

I felt her shake but that was it, I pointed out more new things as we went along so I was speaking non-stop until we stopped at a cross-section and I saw some school kids. I was jealous seeing them living a life I have seen in games I have played.

They looked at me, so I tried my best to wave rightly, I got weird looks so I know I did it brilliantly.

"I'm sorry for everything." Mother apologised to me.

"You're here for me now. I can't be happier." I reassured her and hugged her tightly.

"Really? Have you never been happy?" She mumbled and sounded upset, so I pulled back to reassure her, but then I felt us lose all contact.

It was cold and I was falling.

I looked to the side to see blurry lights then the next thing everything went black and I felt a pain that I had never felt before. I wanted to cry out or scream, to move, to get away from the pain but I couldn't, I was useless like I have always been.

My mother was on her knees begging me to die. I don't understand why but it seems all I have been was a burden, something to throw away. It felt so cold and my eyes slowly closed, but I couldn't accept any of this, the pain was too much. I was screaming in my mind since I couldn't even scream out loud anymore.

The pain cut out but then I felt like I couldn't breathe again even though that should have been the end of my pain. The pain was only getting worse and worse. The agony I felt from being thrown away and now this, I just want it to end already.

My vision was blurry, and I could hear everything around me, but it was getting quieter.

Everything I was feeling from a large pressure on my entire chest to my hearing completely disappearing made no sense to me.

It seems people were panicking around me and there was an even more powerful pressure on my chest until I was able to breathe again.

I was gasping for air, and I was finally able to cry, I couldn't hear myself but I knew I must be screaming.

Once I was able to see a little I calmed down to just sniffling. I saw I was surrounded by strangers who were smiling like my mother had making my fear grow.

I felt tired, and I still couldn't hear anything, the people around me were all moving their mouths but there was still nothing and I got even more scared. 'Mo-! Anyone! Please help!' I yelled in my mind.

I started to cry again making the smiles of the people drop. 'Huh? Who now?! My sister is loud enough, she's even louder than I have ever heard mum sound at night.' I heard a male voice in my mind confusing me.

I was snifflings as I looked for the voice, I saw in a mirror I'm a baby and there was a baby that seems to be a year older than me in the man's arms. 'Wait, why did she look at me? I'm not into sibling dating games.' He frowned and his lips didn't move, but I'm sure it's him the voice I'm hearing in my mind.

'Those actually exist? You actually tried one?' I asked in my mind feeling safer hearing of something familiar.

He paused then went back falling out of the man's arms and off the bed. I think the adults started to scream, but I still couldn't hear them making me cry again.