? book 1 ? You Still Think It's a Joke?

I want to be someone special.

But I know I will never be. You don't give a fuck about me. You never have and you never will. All you told were lies.

"Oh I love you so much!"
"You're beautiful!"
"I'll always love you. I'll always be here for you."
But I'm not pretty...
"You're right. You're gorgeous."

All lies you told. And I kept coming back. Time after time.

But now I know. You never cared. Any of you. And you never will. No one will.

And I don't care what you or anyone else thinks.