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TW/ sexism, abuse , underage drinking.
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is this love??
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my ears start ringing, venti's shouts become muffled and his face blurs out.

"Honey wake up" a sweet voice echos though my ears, my eyes flutter open.
"Mother..?" My voice is sweet and squeaky.
"Yes my baby?" Her face is elegant and bright, I couldn't help but smile. I haven't seen my mother in ages.

'the summer house'

"nothing mother" I sit up my baby next to me, my nightgown white with small pink flowers on it, my long h/c hair drifting. I forgot about this now it's normal.
"My dear breakfast is almost ready" my mother stated before leaving my room. I change into a white floral dress.

I walk down the brown wooden stairs where my father stands in a white suit and slicked back hair.
"Ah y/n good morning" my father says before going back to his phone talking with some franchises.

'I forgot my father ran a huge business.'

I smell sweetness from ten kitchen and walk in, mother is pouring maple syrup on some pancakes. I take a whiff.
"Now Y/n go eat your breakfast before your father catches you sniffing his" my mother points a fruit bowl on the table.

'Right I wasn't allowed to eat sugary food'

"Sweetheart your brother is meant to be here for our photo. He's late" Father states talking to my mother.
"He's probably just running late" my mother smiles. She smile was brighter than anyones.
I walk to the bathroom to clean my teeth, while I was doing that my father was shouting at my mother
"You stupid woman. Your meant to know. If I knew this is how you would act I would have never married you" my father shouts are muffled. I just ignore it, after all it's love.
I walk outside the bathroom my mother has red marks on her wrist and face. She's covering them with concealer.
"Mother?" I ask, walking in front of her, the front of her beautiful dress had small blood marks on the waist and tear stains.
I gasp. "What happened mother" I hug her tight.
"Oh nothing dear just love" she pats my head, the door cracks open.
"Oh hello Cameron" my father smiles walking up to my uncle. Mother runs past me.
"Oh Cameron" my mother jumps onto him with excitement. They both smile. Beautiful smiles.
"We have to take the photo now my dear" my father takes my mothers hand she doesn't show any sign of fear, I do.
We stand together my father holding my mother waist, mother placing her hand on father chest. Uncle smiling. I stand in the front and middle.
"Smile" the photographer says.

Flash

Mother is crying standing at the door.

'What happened? Why is it night?'

"sorry ma'm he's died, we tried to prevent it but.. we couldn't." the man at the door states, my falls on her knees sobbing
"Mother?!" I run up to her, "what happened?!" I look at her mascara running down her face her red lipstick smudged.
"Cameron. He's dead" mother sobs my heart staters. I'm only 5.
I close my eyes

I open them back up and we are at the barn bar.

'Why do I keep blacking out?'

"Oh Felix tell me what happened to my brother" mother grabs the man's shoulders pulling him into a kiss

"Mrs l/n please calm down" Her red lipstick on his lips.
Mother runs off sobbing.
"Y/n why don't you drive" Mother hands me the keys to the car.
"But I don't know how mother" I look at her confused stepping back
"Oh it's easy" mother was intoxicated with alcohol so I had no other choice.

We got in the road my legs were just about long enough, everything was doing okay until I hit a massive bolder we swerved into the side of a petrol station. I reversed quickly and continued driving
"Faster Y/n!" Mother shouted, I put my foot on the gas and we sped off.
Mother was happy. Mother grabbed my hands and we fell off in the woods next to the house.

I open my eyes the car is flipped. Mother is bleeding everywhere and scratches all on her face and body, my nose is bleeding and my face is scratched up.

We walk into the house father is waiting there for us.

"WHAT WERE YOU THINKING" Father shouts "MESSING AROUND THE BAR LIKE A FREAK!" "ARE YOU CRAZY?!"
"you can't despise me darling... please" Mother pleads, Father forehead wrinkles as he puts his hand over his face.
"ANDS BEFORE EVEN INVOLVING
Y/N. ARE YOU PLANING TO GET HER KILLED AS WELL?!" "SHES ALL WE HAVE LEFT" Father pours himself a drink.
"Oh don't be cross at mother" I whine, mother stands up covering her face walking to the door.
"I don't know what's wrong with me" mother cry's muffled, I walk up to mother scared standing informs of her.
"HOW AM I MEANT TO SELL AND KEEP MY BUSINESS AFLOAT! WHEN YOUR HAVING HONEST TO GOD CHAOS!" Father throws his alcohol out not the fire glass shattering everywhere.
"Don't yell father" I plead holding my baby. Mother is shaking holding her head.
"I just can't anymore, I can't stop thinking about Cameron!" "I can't be with people and I can't be alone. I don't know how to be better. Please fix me I wanna be better" I see mother walk up to father. The cut under mothers eye bleeds onto fathers white suit. My eye blur up with tears until it's not very easy to see anymore.

My eyes clear up and I'm at school, I'm playing with this girl.
"higher" I smile holding on to the seesaw. She smiles, we go higher and my hands fall off the handles. I fall off the seesaw I hear a crack once I land on the floor. I shut my eyes again

"You stupid woman your meant to know what wrong with your child! It's your motherly dutys. If this is how you were gonna act after your brothers death I should've just killed you." Father says before walking into my room,
"Father am I going to die?" I hold my baby up close, farther simply smiles
"Eventually but this is just a little mistake in your long healthy life. You will be on bed rest though. Your a L/n Y/n you can I'll have to take over the company one day." Father smiles, he gets of my bed and lets me sleep.

I wake up to fire the maids are grabbing my stuff and moving it to the living room. I follow them, I let out a scream they are throwing my stuff into the fire.
"Please stop! Please!" I crying but they continue, "Father tell them to stop burning my stuff!" I sob father knees down to my level.
"No Y/n what have we talked about not letting your womanly emotions consume you. Do you want to end up like your mother. Your sickness has infected everything it must all go" He smiles taking my baby.
"No not my baby!" I cry, father simply smirks and throws my baby into the fire
"NO!" I scream "MY BABY!"
"Now Y/n go back to bed and stop letting your womanly emotions consume you"

The red fire makes me think of my parent death.
The cold night, mother and father are in the cinema, it was about 5 minutes in and

boom

Fire breaks out and a black hooded man runs away I was too upset to realise him.
"MOTHER!" I sob falling to the ground my red winter dress circles around me, I can't process this. Im 10. I have the whole company to myself. I decided to run away to a brand new city. While I run the sound of Venti's voice comes back tears stream down my face.

"Y/N!" Venti shouts, "WHERE YOU EVEN LISTENING YOU STUPID WOMAN" His words sent a shot of anger through me.
"I am not my mother" I mumble venti looks confused at me
"ARE YOU GOING TO TALK BACK TO ME?!" Venti's fist comes crashing to my face, I quickly move out the way.
"I AM NOT MY MOTHER. I WILL NOT LET A MAN CONTROL MY LIFE. I WILL NOT LET A SEXIST, ABUSIVE MAN CHANGE ME. I LIVE FOR MYSELF!" I shout Vent looks scared as I hold his wrist.
I let go of him and we drive home. The whole trip we are silent, not a word was spoken.
As soon as we get back I get into bed and shut my eyes.
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Y/n's backstory.

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