broken inside

   Jungkook dig his nails in the concrete...floor ...... his nails are bleeding ... yet the pain in his lower part was more than that... he  feels like his whole bones are breaking....  he just murmered ... please help for a thousand times but nobody help him .... now it's midnight ... and yet there is no one ... tears are coming out from his doe eyes continously he just want a help and it looks no one gonna help him ..... he know he have to do it alone.... he take deep breath... try to calm himself in the that dark .... and said .. himself.... bunny ..you can... you have to do it alone ... there is no one for you ... just do it your self you can ... he graped his dirty sweat pants which was wet because of his water broke ... he slowly removed ... he was scared ... scared so much... if it was his end ...then he will die .. peacefully after seeing the baby's face ... he wide his legs .. and push himself ... more and more ... he doesn't know what was he doing but .... he have to do it ...

        The pain in his body and his mind ... the pain in his heart ... everything... makes him cry more ... he scream for the last push ... and baby come out .... he suddenly take him and embrace him in his chest ... not want let him go ..like his world depends on him... the... baby was crying ... crying loudly... only the crying baby and the crying jungkook sounds was heard in  that dark ... he looked at his baby ... who was so small... he kissed his baby who was so munch wet and blood was covered in his whole body ... he exhaustly lied in the cold floor with his baby embraced in his chest ..... he doesn't know what to do anymore .... the babys umbilicalcord.. still connected to him ... if it was his and his baby's end .... he doesn't know that also... he close his eyes .... because of exhaustion with a crying baby in his chest ....

 
      Jungkook opened his eyes only to see he was in a bed.. it was not much as cozy a small bed .. looks like a small hospital.. he panicked and cry for his baby.... My baby ... he want to stand but the pain in his lower body ... he again cried loudly ... my baby... please ... my baby ... suddenly a boy looks like he was 16 or something run and come to jungkook and said .. don't cry baby is safe with nurses they will give you after check up .. jungkook nodded with teary eyes ... and said ... thankyou ... thankyou so much  .... the boy smiled widely and said ... mm.. if you give me your husband no.  I will call him and  say that your here ... jungkook gulped the lump in his throat and said ... I don't have one ... the boy make oh .... face and said ... then any relatives ...  a warm drop of tear escaped from his eyes and he instantly said ... iam an orphan... I have no one  .....  the boy become silent ... and said ... then ... doctor said ... he arrange the discharge... did you want me to drop you somewhere... jungkook nodded again ....

    The boy smiled and said then I will go and pay the bill. Jungkook instately snaped his face at the boy and  said ... I don't have any money ...  the boy slightly smiled and said... it's Okey... I asked my dad for money ... he said he will pay the bill.. my dad was the one who save you in that alley  ... almost that fucking dogs try to kill your baby .... it's Okey now it's all fine ... jungkook mouth leave a painful hiccups .. the boy want to calm him ... but it's good to leave him alone now ... jungkook can't do anything for his baby ... what if his baby starve in the street just like he starve in the street for this one month .... he decided one thing
..he know .. his  baby's appa never gonna accept him again .... but once again he want to try to convince his appa that he is his own blood....

        Jungkook come out from the cab ... the boy make awe face and said is this the kim mansion ... did you work here ... jungkook just nodded his head .... oh.. my ... god ... my dad was Mr kims manager ... you know that biggest billionaire v he is the one my dad works for .... jungkook again nodded his head holding his baby tightly in his arms ...  the boy ask .. did I want to wait for you here .. or ... jungkook slightly smiled and said ... you can go.. the boy smiled widely and said Okey... you should go... I have a class today .. then the boy ... left the place leaving jungkook and his baby ... infront of Kim mansion .

     Jungkook looked at the balcony he lived .. he want his husband just give him a shelter to live .. if it was balcony or what ...he dont care ... he just want to know that his baby was safe ... he go inside ... his heart beat was in peak he just want one more chance ... to prove himself... he entred inside only to see taegguk and the family was playing with a cute babyy..... the boy have everything... new plushies.. expensive toys ... and good clothes ... but looking at his child he feel pitty .. pitty for the baby to born in a unlucky and unloved person like him   have nothing ..atleat a single penny to buy his son a cloth to save him from the cold ... he hold the tears that started to come from his doe eyes...

    Taegguk looked at him ... taehyung murmured ... jungkook ... jungkook was looks like a begger now ... jungkook looked at his appa who was holding taegguks baby .. and pampering him ... then he looked at v who have no expression looking at him seriously  ..... Mrs kim scoffed and angrily asked ... what did you want ... now.. huh ... jungkook choked on his own tears and looked at v who have no emotion .... he pointed his baby ... said while crying ... hyung look he is exactly like you ... see the mole in his nose .. but he have a bunny smile .. but he is exactly like you .. look ... v never give a single glance to baby in jungkook hand .. v finally sighn and said .... get.. out ... jungkook shook his head and said ... hyung look once ... he is your blood ... please ... how can you allow him die in streets because of starvation... atleast take .him only him ... please.... . if he is with me ... he will die in streets.... please have some mercy on our child please...
Mrs kim intrupted and shout .... just get out from here jungkook don't make us kick you out ... we never accept a slut like you in our house .... jungkook kneeled down this time ... holding his baby ... tightly as he Cann... looked at his appa ... also  dont have no expression at ... all.. he said appa.... please  ... just consider my baby as your grandchild ... like that baby in your  arms .. don't allow him to die in streets please.... if you don't want to accept me it's Okey.... just accept him... please.. I don't want to see him die in front of me please... iam begging.... jungkook again and again chocked on his tears .... Mr jeon dont said anything... jungkook looked at taegguk and pleaded... he begged each and every one presented their just to accept his child ...

   Mrs kim shouted guards kick him out ... the guards kick him out ... just like a animal... he hold his baby as tight as he can .. embrace him in his chest ... just don't want to  hurt the baby... they throw him on the cold floor  .... jungkook looked as him baby and whispered with his tearfull pity eyes.... papa is sorry .... papa is sorry that you grow  in my tummy ... papa is  sorry that  you grow in a person like me ..... he again chocked on his tears and looked around and slowly stand with his  wobbly legs ... but a person was looking with  sympathy.... in his eyes ....jungkook gulped and said jimin... why you here .... jimin sighned and give some money that he have and said   .... I know ... how it feels to be alone .. I only have this... I sure you can rent a house with this money ... I don't have much ... if I have I definitely help you..... jungkook take the money with his shaky hands and bowed politely like three for four times and said ... thankyou... thankyou ..so much.. your so kind.. jimin smiled but ... jungkook just left the place ... with slowly steps not want to look at the sympathetic expression that jimin have ....

        jungkook walked in to the foot path .... his dreams .. a small chuckle of  sarcastic form in his mouth ... he looked at his baby... who was sleeping peacefully in his arms ...when ever he looked at his baby.. he only see one face .. his ex husband... who abandoned him for nothing.... jungkook gulped and harshly wipe the tears that formed in his eyes... and said to himself ... I hate you ... Kim tae v I hate you the most ... I never gonna forgive you... not you... everyone that makes my life like this ... iam not gonna forgive single person ... if i rot in hell also ... I never come to you or your fucking family.... I hate them a lot ..... I never forgive you mr jeon... if you love me like jeongguk I never become like this ... I hate you ... I hate you ... he started cry again .... he lean in the wall and slide his body and sit in the dusty floor... atleat that can  ease his pain ....