Outlaw Of My Heart (not edited) (completed)

I woke and slipped out of the bed got dressed and headed into the kitchen where I made myself something to eat before disappearing into my office.

I heard movement before the sounds of footfalls coming towards my office were heard.

I focused on my emails and responded to them. 

Jax opened the door and walked in.

"Can we talk?" he asked

"you sure you don't wanna jump my ass again?" I asked

"look I'm sorry for how I was last night. I was tried from dealing with the shit while on the runs.  then what happened between you and mom added to the shit. " he says

"thats no excuse" I tell him

 he sighs and walks out the door only to walk back in and come right up to me and pulls me up out of my chair and kisses the hell out of me.

"I am so sorry for the shit that happened. I know that I can't apologize for her actions. I can only do it for what happened when I came home. I should've been more caring about you being hurt instead of seeming as though I don't care." he says

I say nothing just look at him as my hormonal ass starts crying.

He pulled me into his arms.

"I didn't know what she'd do with that knife. I could let little peach get hurt. " I say

he rubbed my back and did his best to comfort me.

"I didnt care what anyone said to me or would've done to me for shooting gemma. I was focused only making sure our baby was safe." I say

"I know and you had every right doing what you had done." he says

"you can hate me and not talk to me for shooting her all  you want and if I loose you over it so be it. but I'll never regret shooting her to keep my baby girl safe" I say

he grabbed my face and wped the tears away and had me look at him.

"I'm not leaving you. I'm staying here with you for the rest of my life. I understand why you shot my mother. hell if I was in your position I'd done the same" he says

I sniffle and cry more.

He grabbs a tissue and hands it to me giving me time to blow my nose and wipe my eyes before he spoke again.

"I love you Raya more than my own life, your everything to me, and so is our baby girl. " he says

I looked at him not knowing what to say.

" do you understand me?" he asks

"Yea I do" I replied

"good, now lets go make sure our little peach is doing great and nothing that happened to her" he says

I nodded my head and followed him out.

He helps me in his truck before walking around and climbed in.

I laid my head back and I held my stomach hoping that she's ok and that nothing is wrong. that what happened between Gemma and I didn't affect her in any way.

I didnt talk or say anything as we sat there waiting.

I was preparing my self for the worse as well as great news.

I must had zoned out cause I didnt hear my name. 

Jax nudged me catching my attention before he gestured towards where the nurse waited.

I got up with him nd headed over giving a slight smile before walking through the door.

I gave a short explanation of what had happened. how I had gotten in a disagreement with someone and I was wanting to make sure that the whole ordeal didnt affect mine and my husband's little peach.

After that, she said nothing just ot everything. I laid there and pushed my shirt up to my chest before looking at the screen as she applied the nsmeared the gel around.

the fast pace of little peach's heartbeat could be heard which that was a good sing. now all thats needed to know was if she was still doing great and that nothing was wrong.

"alright from what I can see I don't see anything wrong .she's still doing good in there. just ralxin and taking it easy before her big day comes" the nurse says

"thank you so much" I say tearing up

I was so glad that she's ok and that nothing bothered her.

Once we left and got home I walked into the nursery and sat in the gliding chair and started moving as I laid my head back and closed my stomach as I softly rubbed my stomach feeling little peach move and kick.

"Are you ok?" Jax asked

"I am now. moments ago I thought I lost her" I tell him

he walked up and knelt before me placing his hands on mine.

"She's like her momma. a fighter who wont give up easily" he says

I opened my eyes and looked at him as I stopped moving.

"we've got nothing to worry about. she's doing as she should be," he says

I nodded my head in agreement.