Akirah's Happiness (Chained #1) ?

Sometimes this love bothers me.

Is it worth it?

Is his sacrifice worth it?

Would I be happy without him?

How can he easily do this? How can he think that replacing him would be that easy for me? How can he let me love someone else while I can't even let other girls touch him? How can he let go of me willingly while I can't even let him have fun without me?

I am selfish... so selfish but how did I end up being with him? How did I make him fall for me this much that he's willing to lose everything? I was never been good... and his love is too much for someone like me.

Remembering the times how selfish and toxic I was makes my heart clenched even more. I don't deserve this kind of love he's giving me.

Memories from 10 years ago entered my mind once again. My heart began to swell even more remembering our old times together. Happy times... we shared together.

"Who the fuck is that girl huh baby Johnson?! Kahapon ka pa ah?! Kahapon may baliw na babae na nagsasabing miss ka na raw tapos ngayon ano yun ha?!" Nakakabingi kong sigaw sa nakayukong lalaki ngayon sa aking harap.

Kagagaling lang namin ngayon sa isang bar pero uminit agad ang ulo ko nang nakitang nakikipaglandian siya sa higad na babae kaya tuloy kinaladkad ko pabalik sa hotel namin.

"H-Hindi ko po kilala... may... may tinanong lang po kaya-"

"Diba sabi ka huwag kang lumapit sa ibang babae ha? Can't you understand that simple command?!" Taas baba na ngayon ang dibdib ko dahil sa irita.

"H-Hindi naman po ako yung lumapit e..." nangingilid luha niyang wika. "Sorry p-po... di na mauulit."

"Sa labas ka matulog!" Tumalikod ako pero hinawakan niya ang palapulsuhan ko.

"T-Tita ko..."

"Don't call me tita!"

"L-Lola ko..." sinapak ko siya kaya napayuko ulit ang kawawang bata.

"You asshole! Pinapainit mo ang ulo ko!"

"S-Sori..." bigla niyang yakap sa baywang ko.

Marahas kong kinalas ang kamay niya pero mas hinigpitan niya lang ang kapit sa akin.

"Let me go! Hindi ako marupok tangina mo!"

"No! No! No! Marupok ka! Marupok! Marupok! Marupok-" gigil ko siyang binatukan na nagpatigil sa kaniya.

"Bwiset ka talaga! Anong akala mo sa akin? Magpapa-uto?! Ulol!" Sinabunutan ko na siya para bitiwan ako.

"T-Tita ko..." nanginginig niyang wika na nagpatigil sa akin. No! Hindi ako marupok. Hindi talaga-

Agad akong natigilan nang hinila niya ako papaupo sa kaniyang hita.

"Don't be angry. Ikaw lang naman gusto ko..." baritono niyang wika na nagpakurap kurap sa akin at nagpatibok ng sobra sa'king puso.

"A-Ano?"

"I said you're the only one I like," his tone changed deeper, making my heart beat even faster.

"B-Baby Johnson?" Kinakabahan kong tanong.

"Mm?" Shit! Epekto ata 'to ng alak! Why does he look different in my eyes now? No! No! No! Umiling iling ako sa naisip.

Is Israel really right? No! He is my baby Johnson! Si Johnson lang siya at hindi iyong Greeman! I can't imagine him being mature in my eyes! He's still a baby! A baby-