Not Alone [Jacob Black x Reader]

A few days had passed and it was the day before my birthday. I heard a knock at the door, and since my mom wasn't home I went to answer it. I had been trying to distract myself so I didn't think about who could be behind it until I opened the door to reveal the one person I didn't want to see. Jacob.

As soon as I laid eyes on him my stomach dropped and I suddenly felt self-conscious about my sweatpants and t–shirt combo. He looked nervous to see me, and I could understand why. How do you confront your girlfriend who knows you cheated on her? I resisted the urge to slam the door in his face but refused to speak first.

"Hey." he said after a beat. "Hi." I replied, monotone, not revealing any emotion. He didn't deserve that. "Listen, Y/N," he started, stepping towards me, to which I stepped back. He looked hurt but I didn't care.

"I know you know what happened with Bella. And I want to tell you that I'm sorry. I'm sorry that it even happened, and I'm so, so sorry I hurt you." he apologized, staring down at his feet with tears in his eyes. A part of me wanted to hold him close, comfort him, rub his back, but the greater part of me was pissed.

"Sorry that you hurt me, or sorry you got caught?" I asked, my eyes becoming misty. "What?" he responded, looking up at me in shock. "Tell me, Jacob. Would you have told me if Edward hadn't?" I questioned, looking in his eyes for the truth.

He stood there stunned, not replying. The silence was deafening, and all the answers I needed. I shook my head as a tear fell. I quickly wiped it away before looking back to the boy before me. "Y/N, it meant nothing!" Jacob pleaded, "I regretted it the moment it happened. Please..." He took my hand in his, rubbing it gently with his thumb. Even if I wanted to go back to how things were, I couldn't.

I gently took my hand out of his. "Jacob, I need time to decide if I even can forgive you. What you did..." I trailed off, trying to find the right words, "You broke me. My confidence. My self worth. My heart. All of it. You broke me, and now I have to put it all back together before I can decide if I can trust you with it again."

Tears were streaming down both of our faces when I finished. "Does this mean..?" Jacob didn't have to finish for me to understand the question. "Yeah," I nodded gently, " We're breaking up." Jacob backed away slowly, and I went back inside before even seeing him leave.

I was too overwhelmed with emotion to keep facing him. I wiped away my tears, and went over to my landline to call Alice. She answered immediately, of course, knowing I would call. "Y/N, why are you crying?" She asked, concerned. I forgot that she can't see wolves. "Jacob just came to talk." I sniffled, "Can I come over? Please?"

"Of course, Y/N. Do you want me to come get you," she offered, "or do you want to drive yourself?" I smiled, "I'll drive myself, it'll give me some time to think." I ended the phone call and slipped on my laceless vans before grabbing my keys and heading out the door.

I called my mom in my car before I started driving to explain the situation to her. She was totally understanding.

During the drive to the Cullen's, I thought about my relationship with Jacob. I knew I was in love with Jacob, and I always would be, but I didn't know whether or not I could forgive him. I didn't deserve what he did. It may have been a mistake, but it was a grave one. He loved me and I loved him, but everything was so complicated now, that I didn't know what to do or think. All I knew was that I needed a friend, and Alice was my best friend. A realization that I didn't come to until this moment.

I pulled into the driveway and got out of my, immediately met with Alice and Jasper meeting me on their porch. Once I reached them, Alice pulled me into a hug before letting me go, "Let's go inside to talk." I nodded and went inside under the arm of my best friend, feeling a sense of serenity, most likely thanks to Jasper.

I am so thankful for the Cullens.

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FYI THIS IS NOT THE FINAL CHAPTER, I KNOW THE TITLE IS CONFUSING LOL

-Jas