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Star is many but
Moon is only one
My friends are many but
you are my only one..

Siya Khaleja

"Bolo ab tum kisse choose karthi ho jyada time waste mat karo" i looked at Rahul who was froze in his spot his eyes were on me which were filled with tears

Maa mujhe mera bachpan se sambala hai meine Jo kuch bhi pucha sabh mujhe dilwaya hai mujhe ek successful doctor banaya hai usko kaise mei doka de sakthi hoon

"Aap" i said taking of my eyes and looking towards maa

"Ab tumhara bag lekar mere sath aao mei tumhare liye bahar wait karthi hoon" she said and went towards the door

I cried kneeling on the floor feeling my heart heavy

I came to know that i fell in love with Rahul when I was far away from him when he chose his mother over me

I came to know that he is my love, my life and my everything

I love my maa yes I love her she is the reason for who i am today that i can't deny

"Calm down Siya kuch nahi hoga" whispered priya di kneeling in front of me holding my chin

"Haan Siya ham zaroor iske liye koyi na koyi maarg dhoond hee lete hai" Divya kneeled

"Aaj ke liye jao beti ham sab zaroor ek din tumhe wapas lee aathi hai" said my mother in law and I stood gaining some strength by their words

I looked towards where Rahul was standing but he was not there I went up to our room telling everyone to move and found Rahul standing in the balcony looking out

I went towards him and back hugged him wrapping my hands on his torso i wetted his shirt

"I am sorry ab i am sorry mujhe aap ko choose kar nahi sakti meine socha Aaj hamare liye khush ka din hai par yeh din bhi bohot kaduwa nikla" i whispered he turned and wiped my tears

"Koi baat nahi ham zaroor tumhari maa ko samjha te hai ok?" He asked and i nodded

He smashed his lips on mine and i tried to reciprocate him but as usual failed he broke the kiss and kissed my forehead while we were breathing heavily

"Jao" he said and closed his eyes I closed my eyes letting my tear roll down

P packed my4 bag and left from there saying bye to everyone

We reached the orphanage and we went inside i did not speak a word with her

Though I choose her she made it difficult for me even to converse with her

"Siya" she called me stopping on my way to my room in orphanage

"Mujhe tumse baat karni hai" she said softly

"Abhi nahi maa baad mei bath karte hain" i said and left from there

I came to the room and threw all my luggages filling utter pain my heart

I am both mentally and physically drained from all the ruckus that is happening in my life

I am feeling to hit myself somewhere

After 5 days

"Siya darwaza khol aur bahar aake khana Khao" i heard mama's voice and without arguing i just opened the door and ate the dinner

Everyone were already gone to sleep only me and maa was awake

"Beta meri baath suun pehle" maa said in stern tone and i just looked at her

"Beta mein tumse bohot pyar kartha hoon sabse mein yeh sab tumhari balai ke liye kiya" she said and sat beside me and held my hand

"Tumhara ab BIG BOSS se vivaah hua hai Siya yeh koi choti si baat nahi hai" she said stressing on the word 'big boss'

"Tumhe ab tak janti nahi ki yeh asli big boss kya hai kaisa hai, haa voh mann se bohot accha insaan hai par tumhe uske sath rehna aasaan nahi hoga, tum jaanti nahi uska asli roop jisse dekh kar poora duniya kaampta hai, big boss iss naam mei hee itna Shakti hai kitna iss puri duniya mei kisi aur ke sath nahi" she said and i looked at her dumbfounded

"Voh bas big boss hee nahi voh duniya ki pehli bada mafia gang ka leader hai"

"Underworld mei sab unko 'KING ARNOLD' bulathe hai" she said and i looked at her stunned

"Mathlab Rahul hee 'KING ARNOLD' hai" i asked bewildered she nodded

"Mujhe yakeen hee nahi ho rahe hai ki Rahul itna bada underworld gangster hai meine iss 'KING ARNOLD' ka naam bohot baar suna hai voh kitni badi mission Kiya hai voh sab kuch suna hai uske bare mein ek book jee hai" i said processing all the things

"Par maa yeh sab itni choti si age mei voh kaise kiya" i asked

"Beta voh orphan tha uske maa Milne se pehle tab jab unhone uski orphanage choda tab usne small company shuru kiya uske baad voh fighting, martial arts, kungfu aur karate yeh sab mei bilkul ek number ke tha than se sab ghalat iss duniya mei ho rahe hai usko stop karte aaya issliye usko koi unka naam se nahi bulate hai jab bhi usse bhulate hai usko big boss keh kar hee bhulate sab samjhte hai ki usko dar se big boss bhulaya jaata hai par sach yeh hai ki sabhi log unko bohot respect karte hai" she said with dreamy expression with small smile playing on her lips

"Aap yahan uska taareef kar rahe hai Bala usse mujhe dur kyun kiya" i asked whining

"Beta haan mei usse respect karti hoon par iska yeh matlab nahi ki tum uske sath reh sakte ho"

"Yeh aap kya kahe Jaa rahe ho mujhe kuch samaj hee nahi aa rahe hai"

"Tum uske sath rehti ho toh tumhe bohot khatre ho sakte hain mujhe bas tum acchi raho yahi mein chahti hoon"

"Aur mei yadi acchi raho toh keval uske sath hee reh sakti hoon maa" i said

"Kyun" she asked

"Kyunki pyar karti hoon mein usse mujhse bhi zyada sab se zyada mere liye sab kuch voh hee hai maa uske bina mei nahi reh sakti hoon meri zindagi hai voh aur yadi aap yeh samajhti ho ki mei yahan uske bina khush reh sakte ho toh aapka soch bilkul sahi nahi hai kyunki voh hee meri khush, meri dukh, meri Shakti aur sab kuch uske bina mein zindagi jee nahi sakti hoon maa" i confessed and left for my room

I sat on the bed and cried remembering i can't be far from him anymore it's been already 5 days and every second without him feels like hell for me

I don't know how he is neither i called him nor did he i just ask about his whereabouts daily with priya di

My mobile went off i wiped my tears and took the mobile from nearby table it was from priya di I quickly picked the call

"He..llo Siya" di stuttered and i heard her sniffing i alerted

"Kya hua di aap ro kyun rahe ho" she was silent but I could hear her frantic breathing and sobbing

"Boliye na di kya hua sab kuch theek hai na jiju, Varun sab" i asked but heard her loud crying

"Aur Rah..ul usse kuch nah..i hua na" i asked stuttering she cried loudly

"Di aap kuch bol kyu nahi rahe hai boliye Naa kya hua" i yelled at her feeling blood rushing just the thought of happening something to him kept me trembling

Nahi nahi usse Bala kya hoga

"RK..RK" di breathed and i frozed listening it something has happened to him

"Kya hua usko" i asked in whisper tembling on my legs

"RK ko accident hua hai" she said and i sat on my bed in loud thud

Nahi.....nahi yeh nahi ho sakte

Aap muje bala aisa kaise chodenge nahi aapko kuch nahi hoga aap theek hojayega

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Every big dream starts with small steps..

Love,

Siya