serendipity

It was the reactions you're not expecting, you thought Chaewon would agree and like your idea because it's the only choice you have.

" I didn't mean it that way.. " seeing you head hung low, hearing your voice goes weak, it made her realize how much she have affected you to her words.

She also didn't mean it.

It's just her emotions are messing all over her head.

You have made up your mind when you took your decision and now after Chaewon said those words, you're thinking twice about it.

" Take the surgery, if not for you then for me " Her voice weakens. She can't bare to lost another person again. She just can't.

" I still want to see you.. " Your voice cracks.

You fears it so much that once you takes the surgery that would be your last day already.

Chaewon sighed, trying to stop her tears from falling again. After her parents death, she swears she won't cry over such things because she promised herself that she won't cry again.

But now she broke the promise herself. She's crying and she's thinking.

Are you going to do the same she did ?

Are you going to broke the promise you made ? that you'll stay ? if you will then she'll keep broking her promise to not cry, she'll continue to cry as long as you dare to came back.

" You won't wake up anymore after that time comes. You won't see me anymore after that " that was hard for Chaewon to say but she had no choice but to be direct. " No matter what you choose. I'll still lose you "

If both of you settle on waiting for your time to run out then that will be the end no more other chances, you would still be gone, and if you take settle for the surgery.

There's no assurance that you would survive..

" Then " You look at her. " What do you want me to do, Chaewon ? " you're confused already with what decision you should take and it's really making your chest feel heavy.

You only wish to live peacefully, get out of the hospital and this hospital and have a happy and stable life but then you got the opposite of what you wish.

And now you're struggling to live your life to the fullest.

" Go for surgery " Chaewon answered. " You'll leave me if that time comes, but if you take the surgery and risk for it then atleast you fought. " She look at you with her teary eyes.

" Atleast you tried, Atleast you took the risk to go against it. I just can't bear to see you being happy during your remaining days with me then the next day I wake up.. "

" You're gone " A tear fall on her cheeks, just by thinking of it brings her too much pain already, what more if it happens for real ?

Plastering a smile on your lips, you squeeze her hand that you're holding. " Didn't we made a promise ? " she clearly remembers what you said at the rooftop that time.

" I'll take you out on a date and I'll tell you something ? " despite with the tears falling endlessly at her cheeks. Chaewon was able to show a smile. " You'll survive and I know you will "