To The Sky

He's here.

He's really fucking here.

After he left me in the garage fucking shell shocked all of the guys and Nancy came over to tell me what they have been up too. Nancy and I talked for hours about everything and over the last few weeks she's become the mom I thought I'd never get. The guys stop by constantly with food or to work on cars with me. Cole came last Sunday and we played video games all day. I've loved every moment of it, except...

Mason hasn't come by to see me once. He will wave to me if we both happen to be outside but that's it. He's left me completely alone. Liam says it's because he's left everything up to me. Mason doesn't want to push me into anything I don't want. One thing I've always loved about Mason is his passion for consent. As a girl who lived the nightmare of having her consent taken from her for a year it's one of his best qualities. I also love the way he takes care of me he doesn't know that I know he's the one sending food or the small deliveries of my favorite items being dropped off. It's all him. His thoughtfulness can be overwhelming in the best way possible it's why when he spoke all those nasty things to me during our fight it hurt more than anything else.

I look over at his driveway that damn charger sitting out front letting me know he's home. It pisses me off. It should be parked next to my car. I got so use to seeing them side by side I fucking miss it, no I miss him. I miss his laughs and the way he could make me laugh. I miss his touches not only the ones that set me on fire but the small ones that made me feel safe and cherished. I miss those forest green eyes that sparkled with mischief and darkened with desire. I miss waking up in his arms and feeling at home, at peace. I fucking miss just getting to be myself no judgement from him ever.

I sit on the floor of my garage and start crying. I fucking hate the crying. Fucking Mason. The love of my life. The man who tore my heart out. I miss his ass.

Through the tears I can hear it. My favorite song. The one my gramps and I use to sing out loud and like a bad re-enactment of ten things I hate about you here comes Mason singing and dancing his way to me with flowers. Can't take my eyes off you is blasting through some speaker in his driveway. I give a laugh cry snort, very unladylike, as he gives me his hand to take.

Mason pulls me up and into his arms. He continues to sing to me as we start to sway to the music.

"I love you, baby, And if it's quite alright, I need you, baby, To warm the lonely night, I love you, baby, Trust in me when I say, Oh, pretty baby, Don't bring me down, I pray, Oh, pretty baby, Now that I've found you, stay" Mason sings to me as I curl further into his embrace my cheek against his chest.

"I love you Sawyer." He whispers placing a kiss to the top of my head. He begins to pull away but I tighten my arms around him not ready to let go.

"Stay. Please" I whisper.

"I'll stay forever if you let me baby." He rasps back.

I don't know how it starts but all the sudden we're kissing and then we are in my bedroom lying on bed still kissing as we undress each other.

"Fuck baby you are beautiful." He whispers against my skin as he kisses his way down my body. I shiver as the tingles take over and the heat continues to build.

"I've missed the taste of you." His hot breath on my clit sends electricity through my veins but then my thoughts take over and freeze. I can feel Mason lift his head and those eyes scan me trying to read me.

"I haven't been with anyone since you baby. You are all I want little psycho" His words smooth my worry as he continues to eat me like I'm his last meal.

"Mason I need you now please. I want you inside me when I come" I rasp out needing him more than ever. I'd miss intimacy over the past year terrified I'd never be comfortable with anyone other than Mase.

He's up and over me with my words slowly sliding in.

"Sawyer" He whispers against my lips. All I can get out his a noise in my throat.

"Marry me?"