I'm right here, I promise

Hazel's Pov
"In your own words. How would you describe how you felt after the car crash?" The useless therapist asked me.

"Probably in pain. Physically. Maybe Uhh... I don't know... unconscious." I said as she looked at me.

"If you aren't going to be cooperative. I can't be your therapist?" She said faking a smile.

"Oh? Really great. Can I go now?" I asked and she sighed.

"Describe how you felt when your sister passed away." She said and that pulled some heartstrings.

"I-uhm... I don't want to talk about it." I muttered feeling my emotions grow angrier.

"Ah. I see I've hit a soft spot." She said and I rolled my eyes.

"I don't care if you hit a soft spot. I'm not talking about her!" I yelled and she looked at me.

"You drank alcohol underaged. Thinking it would help you." She said.

"What will the next coping skill be? Sex?" She said and I looked at her.

"Pfft. Sex? Like I'd ever get addicted to that." I mumbled.

"Exactly. Addiction. You can get addicted to weed, nicotine, drugs, alcoh-" I cut her off.

"I swore to myself I'd never do those things. I made a mistake?! Okay? I messed up!" I yelled.

"Doesn't everyone mess up!"

She looked at me like I was some psycho. Of course... I feel like a freak...

"Hazel... everyone does mess up. But instead of finding an addiction. We can use coping skills. Like breathing skills... we can use touch skills." She said and I curled up on the couch.

"I think those are stupid." I mumbled.

Well... they can still help you wether you think they are stupid?" she said and I huffed.

"I believe I can still help you. Why don't we try a technique?" She asked me.

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"Do you feel calm?" She asked me.

"I-... I guess." I mumbled having my knees up to my chest.

"Good... our session is over. You can make your way back." She said and I did.

"Hey... how did it go?" Anna asked me and I huffed at her for making me go.

"Oh Cmon. It couldn't have been that bad." She said.

"Come here.." she mumbled hugging me.

"Why don't we... get some ice cream and find us a movie theater." She said and I just stood there.

"Hazy?" I heard.

"Hm?" I mumbled.

"Does that sound okay?" She asked me and I nodded.

She took ahold of my hand and we walked out. We found ourselves at an ice cream parlor has I got my original. Cookie dough chocolate.

^ong the best flavor don't talk back

We went to a movie theater. One that wasn't too loud and it was a cartoon. We sat in our seats and I sat next to Anna has she put the divider up and pulled me closer to her.

I laid my head on her as the commercial movies started.

"Hazy don't eat all the popcorn." Anna whispered and I frowned.

"We still have a movie to get through. Slow down." She whispered.

"But it's so good." I mumbled eating faster.

Anna rolled her eyes before getting up. She was gone for a while and the movie was about to start. She came back with another bucket of popcorn.

"Nuh Uh. This popcorn is for the movie only. Eat that until it's gonna and I'll let you have it." She said and I huffed.

After the movie started we switch popcorn buckets and continued as I munched down the entire bucket. Having a drink to wash it all down.

After the movie ended we drove home in the dark. Anna took glances at me a couple times before speaking up.

"You think therapy is helping?" She asked me and I shook my head no.

"It couldn't be that bad." She said.

"She made me feel like a freak." I mumbled.

"Than why don't we take you to another one?" She asked.

"Do I have to go though?" And she nodded making me groan.

"You sound like a 15 year old with therapy. You need it. I can't help you cause I'm not always able to help you because I've never been in your situation." She said and I stayed silent.

"Listen... I know it's gonna take some time to get use to but what if we tried different therapists. Find one your comfortable with and you'll get used to it." She said and I just looked out the window at picture black with a sun shine lamp on each 50 meters.

"Hazel... I'm trying to help you out here..." she mumbled.

"What if... what if I don't want help?" I mumbled.

"You don't get help and you cause yourself a deeper hole. It will go deeper and deeper and soon enough it will be too late." She said.

"You don't have to tell me anything. Hazy this is your choice. But a lot of people have been in your place and maybe you can help them too." She said.

"You love helping people.. Cmon. Maybe it's time to help yourself instead of others." She said and I felt guilt.

"But-" I started to say when she cut me off.

"Put yourself first now. It won't hurt you to do that." she said lifting my chin.

I realized that she must have pulled up in the driveway of the house. I walked into the house not bothering to do anything but sit in bed and curl up into a little ball.

I felt Anna's arm snake around my waist pulling me closer to her.

"I won't get mad if you put yourself first. Your mental health is clearly bad and I want you to get better. I love you." She said and I felt myself tear up.

A/n

Crazy... yeah about the whole part two there was two that tied. This one and a Her tutor one shot.