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As I got to school, I walked to my locker seeing Jared standing there staring me down like a hawk eyeing its prey.

"So you been fucking my step-cousin behind my back, huh Jamir." Jared angrily said squeezing my wrist.

"No, I just hang out with him because he  always is nice to me and he also buys me new things that I didn't have to beg for, like those times I asked you when I first got with you. I said closing my locker walking away.

The rest of the day I went to all of my classes  working though the sickness but throwing up at the end of them and going to the nurse's office. While I was there, the lady gave me a note to my sister and she sent me back to class. I ate my lollipop looking down at my phone.

After school at 4:23 p.m

Jared's POV

I got home from school and called Jamir hoping he would answer me after what happened Friday afternoon. I do feel bad for hitting him because he does love me so much but I just let drugs and alcohol take over my mind causing me to take my anger out on him and having self-doubt about my relationships. I mean I had a devastating life. No one should have feel pity or sympathy for me.

My mom was friends with Jamir's mom, she was always smoking crystal meth with Ms. Yasmine and their nasty ass friends. I had three siblings, two living and one in the grave. My oldest sister and brother, Lawrence and Eartha were always protecting me from bullies and my two stepdads that raped my younger sister and me while my mom was out of town with her friends. Carolina who died from fentanyl overdose at 14 was my only friend to be with when I needed someone to talk to. My mom used to sell us to her drug dealers and pimps and make us do sexual acts with them to pay off her debts. I hated her so much that I started using drugs, pills, and alcohol to numb the pain. I never wanted to see her i again, she's in Florida with my aunt. But the truth is I loved my mom so much to hate her for what she did.

I heard my phone ring while I was rolling a blunt. It was Jamir calling me for the fourth time. I answered it and heard Jamir nervously breathing like he was scared.

"Hey my lil redbone, you good. I wanted to talk to you about what happened last Friday. Is it okay if I talk to you about it."
I said lighting my blunt.

"I'm okay I'm just feeling a little sick like I got the stomach bug. I ate some food and I felt throwing up my lunch I had packed. Jamir said.

"I seen you've been gaining a little weight over the past few days. You're on yo period, right". I said clicking on the search panel .

"I haven't had it in two months but I'm bloated"

"You sure you're not pregnant. If you is I'm not feeding eight plates each month". I said scrolling through movies on my tv.

"I don't know because I went to the doctor's yesterday and they said I was fine and I just need some rest. I'll do a pregnancy test Jared because you're the only guy I've have been with". Jamir cried.

I looked at my phone while talking to Jamir. my boss Kenny is calling me.

"Ight, well baby I got to go. My boss is calling me and it urgent so I'ma call you later, bye love you.

"Bye, love you too, Jared" Jamir tells me before hanging up on me.

"Hey little jit, I need yo ass to come down to the trap and get these Xanax pill bars to Kent's house and collect my money, if he doesn't have my money then pump him wit dat lead and leave him there. Kenny says yelling through the phone.

"Ight bruh I'm on my way to the trap now". I tell Kenny as i annoyingly hanging up the phone.

Jamir's POV

I went to my cabinet in the bathroom and pulled out a pregnancy test. I got on the toilet and peed on it. I was waiting a whole hour and a half then I got the results back the test was negative but I was having all of the symptoms which probably was caused by stress.

I came out of the bathroom and got Chardonnay's keys from the kitchen table.

"Where the hell you going with my car. You okay Jamir" Chardonnay said smoking her cigarette.

"To the clinic uptown, I been having a rough week with stomach problems". I nervously said while heading to the door.

"Ight you can take my car" Chardonnay said

I went to the Dr. Clinton clinic and doctor office since I didn't feel like the pregnancy test was accurate. When I got there it was no other than two people there. I sat down in the waiting room, I saw Kim and Gina and the prostitute that lived on the 1st floor.

"Hey Jamir how's life going for you" Kim said wearing a blue doctor outfit.

"It's been good, Kim I said smiling at Kim

i work here every Thursday" Kim said smiling.

"That great I-"

"Mr Henderson, we're ready to see you" a nurse said smiling at me.

"I got to go, see you later Kim"

"Ight I hope you feel better" Kim said going into the lobby for a cup of water.

I went into a doctor's office and saw this sexy ass lightskin man with green or brown eyes and gold around his teeth.

I sat down on the examination table, playing with my hands and swinging my legs up and down.

"So Mr. Henderson we need you to pee and this then we need to do a blood test so we can examine if you're pregnant". Damian said handing me a urine cup.

"Okay I'll do all of those things you have told me". I said smiling nervously at him.

I went to the bathroom and peed in the cup, I wiped and cleaned myself up down there.
I went back into the doctor's office and sat down. Damian grabbed the cup and gave it to the nurse. He came back with a syringe and sat down.

"This is going to hurt a little bit. I need you to tell me some important information about you and how you got in the situation with the women's health therapist after we're done doing the exams". He said looking down at me.

I nodded and he started inserting the syringe in my vein. The syringe took up about twenty five milliliters and put them into some type of tube.

After I did all of the test and interviews with the health therapist I just waited fifteen to thirty minutes. Suddenly the doctor came back and handed me some papers.

"You're one month pregnant, at seventeen years old" the doctor said

I began walking out off the office and the building. I got in the car crying while drinking my Powerade and listening to Velvet by KIRBY. I drove back home and called Jared.