Alvarez

The strongest people are the ones who are still kind even after the world tore them apart. - Raven emotion

Christian
She's easily the most beautiful thing I'd ever seen. I'm unsure if it's her alabaster skin. Or the way her dark brown hair contrasts her pale complexion. Or if it's the subtle scent of roses and something sweet that I get when I'm near her.

I don't know what it is about her. But it's softening me already. I don't like it. I don't like this entire situation. I don't like what's she's making me feel. She's awakened something in me, something gentle yet so primal. I can't be such an idiot. We've only just met, and she's already in my fucking head.

In all my 32 years of existence, I've had little to no concern with matters of the heart. They are extremely irrelevant, nothing but a bother and added expense. With my five odd years out of the game, women satisfied my needs and I did theirs. But I don't waste time with sweet nothings and vanilla sex. Not for me. It's always seemed like something you can live without.

But when you've been on your own for so long, it gets rather irritating to be in civilization. If I could've lived the rest of my life in the shadows, that's what I would've done.

But Mia, she's...different. There's a light to her. Some sort of light that hasn't been snuffed out by the world yet. She wants so much. And while I viciously berate other people in my path, I soften for her. Why? Fuck if I know. It took ten seconds in her presence to knock me off my game. I'm just thankful she didn't notice me get weak in the knees when she walked in the room.

I hear the tick of my Audemars Piguet. She's staring at me. I pondered telling her about the atrocity that is her father and ex-fiancé. But I can protect her from that for now. Give her some time to think and calm down.

Jesus Christ. Is this what I bother about now? She's isn't comfortable with me yet. I can understand her restraint, her original aversion towards me. I wouldn't be comfortable in a room with me either. I try my level best to remain calm and speak to her in the best way I can, however it is taking a toll on me. I am not familiar with patience.

"what is it?" she asked, her voice is so soft she sounds like a child. It's the type of soothing I can't put into words. It's enough to stop my thoughts in it's tracks.

"that, I can't tell you right now. For now, I just need you trust me." I answered. She was on edge. I hadn't even laid a finger on her. She looks so nervous right now, I have an urge to reach out and touch her. The thought of unnecessary human touching made me nauseous. Human contact makes me nauseous yet this... Why was it so bearable? Something is definitely wrong with me.

"you do realize what you're asking me, don't you? You know what people say about you and you're asking me to trust you?" she said, a hint of a spark coming in her eyes. She's actually raising her voice at me.

"I didn't think you'd listen to rumors, Mia. But tell me. What have you heard?" I asked, she shot her gaze elsewhere.

"you have quite the reputation, Mr Alvarez. My father has mentioned a couple times that all you cared about was 'potere e denaro'. That's what they call you." she said. I smiled in my head. I wanted to laugh but I held it back. 'power and money'

"that's not too far off. I definitely enjoy power, however, too much money can be a bother sometimes." I say to her. She's not at ease with me yet.

"I don't understand, Christian. What is this? Why do you speak to everyone like trash but me so calmly? Is it because I am a woman?" she asked. If only she knew how I spoke to woman. She'd run far away from me if she could make it out these gates. I'm not sure what exactly it is, but the sound of my name on her lips is starting a fire somewhere deep inside my system. Perhaps I need my head examined. My heart too, because it just started pounding.