Madman [Hwang Hyunjin ff]

- Have you thought about confessing to him? - I choked on my own saliva, all color leaving my face.

- What do you mean? - I knew what he meant. What I didn't know is how he could have known.

- It's so obvious, Eun... you couldn't stop looking at him while playing cards, and you blush all the time when he's close to you... it seems pretty clear to me that you like him. - he eyes me from head to toe, scanning my reaction.

- I-I don't know. I'm afraid I would ruin what we have now, you know? - I fixed my gaze on the floor, counting every tile I stepped on until we got to the cafeteria.

- Fear makes us see things as distorted and different from how they really are. - He showed a slight smile, surprising me. - I would give it a shot. -

After that, he walked away silently, joining Namjoon and Jin in their conversation.

I kept walking silently in front of everyone, still pale as a ghost.

Would it have been worth it? Should I have truly confessed? All that I could think of was how cute his little giggles were, his smile and his deep brown eyes.

I tried to mask the blush which was creeping up my face when we sat up the table, Felix and Hyunjin sitting on either side of me, Jisung right in front.

He kept on wiggling his eyebrows, showing a teasing smirk.

- Jisung, cut it down or I swear I'm gonna kill you. What happened between Hyunjin and I is just sex. Now stop behaving as if you were five and eat. - I glared at him, and he immediately stopped his actions.

I wanted to sound indifferent to what had happened between me and Hyunjin, though deep inside I felt very differently. I didn't want it to be that obvious, so I thought that indifference might have been the way of doing it.

When I lifted my gaze from the plate, all eyes were on Hyunjin and I. I didn't know why, so I turned towards him, only to see him quickly stand up and run out the cafeteria.

I was split between running after him or just ignore him. I saw his figure disappear behind the door, slamming it with way too much force.

I turned toward the others which were now emanating pity from their eyes. Only Chan dared to speak up.

- Go after him. - It took me nothing else to stand up and run out of the door.

On the hallway, I couldn't see him anywhere. I rushed to the first secretary desk I could find, and panting I begged her to check where Hyunjin was as fast as she could.

- Interrogation room. - She responded after what it felt like ages.

Again, I found myself running.

I was breathless when I finally reached that poorly lighted hallway, only one window being surrounded by a dozen of people.

- Move! - I shouted, and they all retreated from it.

Inside there was Hyunjin, loading his gun right in front of a poor woman.

- Hyunjin! - I spoke through the microphone, but he pretended not to hear me. Instead, he shot a round of bullets at her, then turning towards the window as the woman collapsed in the floor.

His eyes were red and puffy, his cheeks flushed.

- Leave. - He stated in a low growl, looking right at me through the panel.

Another man was forcefully brought in and placed on the only chair in the room, blindfolded.

- I-I s-swear, I d-didn't... - He cried.

Bang.

Before the man could finish his sentence, Hyunjin had already shot him in the head.

I spoke again through the microphone.

- Hyunjin, get out right now. - My tone was more serious.

He didn't reply.

As I grew more annoyed, I decided to enter the room he was in.

I twisted the door knob, hardly making any sound. However, he managed to hear, and swiftly turned to face me, his eyes emanating pure hatred.

- I said leave. -

- Hyunjin... - I was almost pleading him.

- Don't make me do this, Eun. - He loaded the gun, pointing it at me. His voice cracked.

- Why are you doing this, Jinnie... - I left one tear fall.

- I'm just sex, right? - He chuckled, holding back his tears. Words failed to come out of my mouth, only a single, tense sigh. - Right?! - He shouted at me, finally letting loose and bursting out crying, still holding his gun up.

- Hyunjin... - I tried to explain, but he wouldn't let me.

- Fuck off, Eun, leave me alone! - His words hurt me deeply. It was like a stab in the heart.

- Y-You're not just sex... - I was crying as well.

- Don't say this, Eun, I don't believe you... - He bit his bottom lip to avoid bawling.

- But you're not. - I chuckled, sniffling. - I love you, Jinnie. With all of my heart. - I smiled through the pain for having let go of such a burden. I had finally confessed.

He chuckled again, looking at the ceiling to try and hold back few tears.

- All these years only for you to say it first... - He let the gun fall on the floor, rushing towards me.

He cupped my cheeks, starting a heated kiss, full of love. I could taste the lollipop he had been eating, along with our salty tears. It was the perfect mix for such a moment.

- I love you so much, Eun, I have for such a long time... - He said once our lips parted, looking at me directly in the eyes. On his face, a genuine smile was stamped as he admired my features. - You are just perfect. I couldn't help but fall for you. -

He pecked my forehead, holding me into a tight hug as he rubbed my back soothingly.

After few seconds, his body retracted slowly. Only our breaths could be heard in the room, broken by random sniffles.

- Should we go back? - He was looking at me with pure love and admiration in his eyes, and I returned the look.

- Yes, we should. - I chuckled, wiping away the last few tears I had in my eyes as he did the same.

We exited the interrogation area together, his right arm holding me close to him by my shoulders.

I couldn't help but smile.

He loved me, and I loved him. That was all I needed at the time.