「四」
sensors, such as sight, sounds and scent, can often unintentionally lead us to nostalgia or reminiscing remorseful memories.
i wonder, what if one were to be intoxicated with nothing but desperation and demise, without any space for fond thought...
the scenery of dilapidated buildings surrounded iori and i. who knew that something in the real world was closely accurate to how my mindscape felt like.
it was the historical drama set for the short, exclusive series celebrating TRIGGER's debut. and of course, IDOLiSH7 would contribute as characters in the episodes.
everything felt oddly familiar to me, its crevices had left perfect spots for the eyes to linger around in small amounts.
"riku-kun!" called out sougo-san.
he's the one person that resembles tenn-nii the most, maybe that's why i suddenly relaxed my tensed muscles – at which iori noticed.
"sougo-san..." something bothered me, it was strangely quiet considering that sougo was a well-reserved person, "where's everyone?"
"ah! TRIGGER-san are currently being put into their new costumes so the others decided to take a little breather..." his pale, porcelain skin dripped with slight worry, "we aren't sure when your solo appearance comes up so you might have to stay later, that's what manager-san told me to inform you of!"
oh.
guess the break i've been anticipated for won't come any time soon.
"thanks sougo-san." my lips upturned softly at him, and since their time was cut short – the two bid their farewells and hurried elsewhere.
there, did i notice, was tenn-nii skimming over at his script. i assume he was the first to finish getting changed, afterall i don't recall him in the current outfit he was in.
i saw that look you gave me! i know what it means.
that momentary glance that you do. you raise your line of view lightly upwards, act like you're blinking, and that's when you lay your eyes on me.
you're my brother. i can read you.
i could feel my teeth baring out with pure animosity, why was that?
"riku-kun..?"
a quick yet light swat on the back was enough to release me from unknowing anger forming, "ah- .... i have to do makeup right? thanks, i'll get going."
the cascading locks of crimson locks swayed behind me as my boots clattered at the hard surface, it wasn't the most ideal situation but, who could stop that?
hair extensions tighten at my roots, i could almost feel them rip out my actual hair out.
even i can tell my composure's fragile, anything could trigger something in me soon. i don't want anything to happen to anyone, so i smiled light-heartedly.
"you're ready? let's start filming then, riku-san!" my manager waved at me delightly, it felt like a fresh breeze honestly, "kujo-san! yaotome-san! you should start to get ready too."
i could hear faint voices, i had no energy to process them though.
"yeah, we should."
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— TENN
why do your brows twitch whenever you observe me? or even at others?
riku, i'm not worried. i am. riku, i can't be near you. but i want to be.
your teeth clenches at the slightest annoyances, that's not like you.
you're not like me. you're way different to what i am.
who am i to judge, it's not like i even know you well anymore ...
