have you ever found the one? the person who is loving and treating you in a way that you deserve? the person who's doing everything for you, making you feel so special, important, and all.
I know lots of people will say that love is bullshit, waste of time and shit but for me, some people need other people to feel home. and that's what counts. you live your life, lost and confused. but in the end, you live your life with certain person who complete you, who guide you, who brings out the best version of you even if you don't know it yourself.
no matter how much you close yourself in, there will always be someone who make you feel as if you're not alone, as if you have someone with you, because ultimately, you do.
It's beautiful how you go through fire with this certain person no matter how much it burns. you rely on their trust and they rely on yours, and to be honest, there's nothing more satisfying than that. That certain person makes this lonely life worth living.
"hey, y/n!" I heard as she stepped inside.
"hey there, baby." I replied with a smile.
remember when I asked if you already found the one? well, not that I'm bragging but I found mine. Elizabeth Olsen, my fiancé. she's everything I have ever wanted and I couldn't imagine my life without her. she's my everything.
"can we- can we talk? please?" she quietly asked and I instantly got worried.
"ofcourse, is everything okay? are you okay?" I asked and checked her looking for any pain.
"yeah, yeah, it's just I have something to tell you." she said and I nod. "remember the person I met few months ago and instantly became friends?" Lizzie asked as she sat on the couch opposite to mine.
"you mean Robbie?" I asked tilting my head a bit.
she nods and took a deep breath, "I... I know this isn't right and all but it's just, it's so confusing at first but the more I try to understand it, the more it gets clearer." she ramble which confused me.
"what do you mean, Liz?"
"everytime I'm with him, I keep getting this feeling inside of me which isn't right because I'm supposed to only have this feeling when I'm with you. I tried, I swear, I keep telling myself that you're what I need. what I want. but, the more I do it and lie to myself, the more I lose it." she explains and now, I think I know where this is going.
she's going to break my heart, and it's slowly ripping into pieces.
"you fell for him, didn't you?" I painfully asked, blinking slowly to stop the tears.
"I'm really sorry, y/n. b-but we can fix this, I can fix this! I'll just distance myself, I'll avoid him!" she frantically said.
I shook my head and let out a small chuckle, "we can't fix this because there's nothing to fix. you said it yourself. you don't feel anything towards me anymore, he's the one you want, so why bother? I don't want you forcing and keep gaslighting yourself that you still love me. I want you to be happy." I said letting a tear drop from my eyes.
"y/n-"
"it's okay. actually, it's not okay but what can I do? we can't always force things, especially love. all I can do is let you go and let you be happy... with him." I said almost whispering the last part.
"I'm really sorry, I didn't mean for this to happen." she cried.
"nothings permanent, remember?" I mumbled, trying to humour out my pain. I stand and walked towards her before kneeling, "I'll always prioritize your happiness, Lizzie. It breaks me, yes, but if breaking my heart and letting my happiness go is the only way to see you happy, then I'll gladly do it. I'm letting you go now, my love." I said with a painful half smile, cupping her cheeks while looking at her forest green eyes as I wiped her tears away.
"I'm sorry..." she whispered.
"I love you, Lizzie. I love you so much... always remember that meeting you was the happiest moment of my life, and having to leave you will be one of my biggest pains." I said and kissed her forehead letting it stays for a minute. for the last time.
"I loved you..." she whispers.
maybe one day, we'll meet again and explain to eachother what really happened. maybe one day, we'll finally understand. until then, I hope you live your best life and I hope you really do all the things you always wanted to do.
our love- no matter how strong, or how real- was destructive.
I was hers, she were mine, we were meant to be. but only time could tell and, unfortunately, time told us we weren't.
what a loss to spend that much time with someone, only to find out that she's a stranger.
she's the greatest gain that I cannot receive, that is why it's time to let her go.
I see a stranger in her eyes, where once I saw a soulmate. It breaks my heart.
maybe, it's not about the happy ending. maybe, it's about the story.
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hello, people. yes, I'm alive. I'm so sorry for disappearing for over a month, I've been pretty busy with my personal life. did you miss me? no? okay, bye. I hope y'all like this, tell me what you think, enjoy!
- G.J

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W. Maximoff / E. Olsen x Fem reader
Fanfictionwhatever the title says. i'm sorry for the awful and poor writing, english is not my first language. [ completed ]