An Endless Date

Chapter XIII

"Just get lost, don't spoil our mood."

"So, when's the wedding?" I asked Sophie from the kitchen as I sip water

"Well, my folks and yours are planning within the next two months. Ready to be a groomsman?" she said

"Yeah, already selecting suits," I said sarcastically and filled one bottle to take with me to the room

"Pretty thirsty huh?" she asked

"Pretty De-hydrated," I said

"He's pretty drunk," Max said

"You're pretty clever," I said and came to my room

I took aspirin and jumped onto my bed. I wanted to call Ben but decided to call him later in the evening. I slept, this time with no sign of Anna. Well, now I got; I realized.

***

Jealousy. The one thing which gets into any type of relationship. It's anger, disappointment, and helplessness that made me yell at Anna the other day. I just couldn't stop my feelings for her to control me and make the words I used there. Somewhat I know that anyone would have reacted the same when they hear that there is another guy who is important to the girl they like. my mind popped with many questions. How come she never mentioned him to me if they're so close? She made her move by walking away all alone the other night. It's my turn now.

Either I have to just leave to let her be and wait till she comes and talks to me or have to go to her and ask for an apology. Somewhere I know Anna won't take that first step. Anyways I don't want to ruin our friendship. I'm the first person she tried to talk to and I'm her first friend in this town, how can I just let her be? I have to come to decision on this but it felt okay cause it had been only one day since we fought.

It's still Sunday, the clock showed 5 pm. I'm feeling better, than in the morning. My head feels good. I had a dream; it was pretty sick. I was running in a street where everything feels dark and the ground beside turning weak and fell into a deep canyon, I ran as it reached me, but woke up as I am falling down into a deep dark place. I am a writer; I can picture and compare them to my things. I should admit that I was pretty lazy and boring before I meet Anna, nothing seems right and nothing felt good. That day when she took the first step to talk to me by waiting for me at the staircase in the school, my days took a turn.

I was never really happy and I was never really interested in having a person like her with me for my whole life. The moments we read together, the night she scared me in that abandoned factory, the times when we play in the park like little kids, the times I walk with her on moonlit nights, they were so beautiful and part of my life now. I never want to lose it again. At least not to my jealousy. I don't know if the fight we had made me lose and hate her or realize and hate myself for acting like that. I just came to the decision that I should apologize to her and make things right again. To talk over that Allen guy and come to an understanding. I don't care who it is, or whatever they were in the past or still are, I won't let some stranger guy to my life let me lose the glitter of my life.

"But she said to take care of your feelings." My mind said

"Let it be taken care of, I will lose them if having them means losing her"

"But..."

Shut up! My silly subconscious always tried to make mistakes for me, but now I won't let it. The only thing I want is her in my life. She's the silver lining to mine and losing her would hurt me more than it hurt the other day. I want her back and I am going to make things right.

It's been two hours since I woke up, and I'm still circling in my room trying to get to a decision on this. Now I got it, and I texted her. 'HEY, I AM SORRY. CAN WE MEET?'