If we have each other... | Charles Leclerc

After I calmed down, we walked out of the bathroom and headed to get a drink.

"Babe I was looking for you! Is everything okay? If you're tired we can leave." he smiled and kissed me. "I- uhmm no everything is alright! I'm just getting a drink with Lu, no worries." I smiled at him too. "Okay, but if you need anything call me or find me okay?" he kissed me again and then left to join the boys again. "This is horrible! I'm the worst person ever! I can't do this to him." I said and drank my drink. "Wow slow down! You're supposed to enjoy the drink and not drink it all at once. Bells calm down okay? You're not doing anything bad. You said you don't love Charles anymore." I looked at her. "Do you actually believe me that?" I sighed. "Honestly? No not at all." she smiled. "Ye me neither, my heart and brain are just in such a different places." I said disappointedly.

Luisa sat next to me and hugged me. After a few minutes she went to find Lando, because she wanted to dance with him and I just kept ordering drinks for myself.

"If you keep doing this, you will end up dead right at this place." I heard a laugh behind me. I turned around and then back again. "I know that." I said and drank my glass again. "Okay that's enough. Let's go far away from the bar." he said, grabbed me by my shoulders and led me away. "I think I actually need some air or I'll faint." I said, because my head was turning around so fast. I wanted to find Pierre, but I felt really sick and Charles was the only one, who could help me at that moment.

He took me into his arms and brought me out of the club. He sat down on the grass behind the building and slowly put me down, so I could rest. I had my head on his lap and he kept stroking my hair. "Thank you, this is actually much better, I feel better." I said with closed eyes. "I'll stay with you, until you will feel like standing on your own." He laughed. "It's not funny Charles." I tried to say seriously, but I had to laugh too. "God how much I've missed your smile." he said. I couldn't help myself to stop blushing, but I didn't say a thing.

We were looking at the stars in silence. Everything felt so weird, but amazing at the same time and my emotions were completely messed up.

"So you and Pierre-" Charles started, but I stopped him. "Please don't, just enjoy this moment and don't say anything that will ruin it by any chance." I said and he sighed. "I just wish I could have been braver and come to you sooner to apologise and get you back." he said and looked at me. I sat to face him. "You've never really lost me Charles. I can't forget about someone, who was everything to me and helped me the most, when Marco passed away." I said with tears appearing in my eyes. "Bell please don't cry, I can't see you like that." he said and tried to dry my tears with his thumb. I couldn't help myself and hugged him tightly. He was rubbing my back and holding me to comfort me.

When I was pulling away, our faces met close to each other and I stopped there. Our lips were getting closer and closer, until he put his head down. He grabbed my cheek and looked at me. "I don't want you to do something, you will regret in the morning." he said sadly and put his hand away. "I promise, I'll try to stay away from you." he smiled and was ready to go. "Charles!" I said, when he was walking away and I was still sitting on the ground. "I love you Bell." he said and walked away.

I stayed on the grass, silent and lost somewhere in my thoughts. After a while I stood up and went back to the club. On my way I was still drying my tears and trying to look as normal as possible.

I walked in and grabbed my stuff I had there. "Where were you Bella?! I was looking for you! Wait were you crying? What happened?" Luisa caught my hand and I looked at her. "No, I'm fine, I'm just tired and want to go to bed. I'll see you, when you come back home. Night Lu." I said and I wanted to go. "You're not leaving alone! Let's go find Pierre." she said and I looked at her nervously. "Please he will get you home safely and you will get a long rest. Tomorrow you'll have clear mind and everything will be better." she smiled and dragged me around the club to find Pierre.

"There you are!" she relieved, when we found him with Esteban and Yuki. "In all my beauty yes it's me." he laughed and looked at me. "Oh no darling, what's wrong?" he asked worried and took me aside. "I'm just tired, I'm going home okay?" I said and he smiled. "Sure, I'll grab my coat and let's go." he said and ran upstairs to get it.

After he came back, we said goodbye to everyone and left home.

I didn't even have the strength to get a shower. I immediately lay down and fell asleep exhausted.