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I had been rushed into the ICU due to my injuries. Doctors rushed around, pulling me into MRI scans and X-rays but it was over for a little while at least. Demi wasn't allowed to come back with me but now that I wasn't being rushed around she was able to come and visit me. As much as I didn't want to admit it,I felt better when she was around, we had grown closer but neither of us had made a move yet. "So, they tell you what's up yet?" She asked walking over to the hospital bed and seating herself on the end of it. I shook my head "the X-ray should be back soon" I whispered, struggling to talk from the pain. "Don't speak. You'll hurt yourself." She said, taking hold of my hand. She talked to me for a while, me replying with a shake or nod of my head until a doctor came in with what looked to be my X-rays. Instead of telling me as I expected he handed a sheet to demi and he began to move me away. The panic set in and demi read through the sheets, signing what needed to be. "w-whats-" "don't talk Syd. Doc, tell her" I looked over to the doctor and he began to explain "four of your ribs are broken, shattered even. A messy break on each of them. Pieces of your bone are penetrating your lungs, it's dangerous for you to breathe right now. You're going into emergency surgery. Now." Before I even had time to think I was in an operating theatre, anaesthetic being injected into my arm and my eyes growing heavier...

I woke up to find myself in a post-op ward. In a room almost by myself, a familiar 5'9 Aussie asleep on a chair in the corner of my room. I pressed my buzzer for a nurse, and within minutes one was in my room with me. "Is there a problem?" She asked, her voice quiet after noticing that demi was asleep. "No. I couldn't see a clock anywhere, what time is it?" I said, my throat was dry and cracking a little, but it didn't hurt to talk anymore, which I suppose was a plus. "Yes. It's 6:30am. I'll have Doctor woode come to tell you everything you need to know" I nodded and she left the room, returning with the doctor that rushed me into surgery earlier. "Hello Sydney. I apologize for any stress caused earlier. We were working with a matter of time and pressure so it was a very rushed thing. Now, about your situation." This was where everything was going to go to hell, but I knew what was coming.

"I understand that your place of work is very high risk and very active. Which will be very problematic. You'll stay here for a week. Then you'll go home on restricted access, no work, no gym, nothing. Then we'll remove your stitches. But, prepare yourself" my stomach turned as I prepared for the worse. "The way I see it, you're not going to be in the ring for the near future. You can train, but ease your way into it.  But it's too high risk for you to be fighting anymore" I choked on my own breath, hearing him say that I wouldn't be able to do my job again, I was fighting back tears and was so distracted that I didn't notice that Demi had awoken. "Syd can't fight?!" Her shock was clear in her voice. "It's okay." I whimpered out, trying my hardest not to cry. "I understand. Thank you" Dr Woode nodded "I'll leave you alone.." he said before leaving. The second the door shut I broke down, Demi immediately pulled me into her arms and I just sobbed my heart out.

After crying to the point I felt sick, demi helped me calm down and I was able to sleep for a little while. I woke up around midday to a nurse bringing me food. Demi wasn't here but it was only for a moment, she returned with a cup of coffee, and gave it to me. "What am I gonna tell everyone" I said, feeling my heart pounding out of my chest. "I don't know. We'll see to that when it becomes a problem. But I know one thing, you're gonna do it live, the world deserves to know the proper explanation." She sighed, sitting back down.

"I know. I can't believe it. What am I gonna do? I don't want to be an official, that'll just remind me of what I'm missing out on." I said, feeling tears stung my eyes again. "You don't have to stay by the way" I added, taking a drink of the coffee. "I want to stay here. I don't want to be anywhere else right now. Look I know we have spent so long trying to be friends but honestly Sydney we could be so much more. I want you to realise that no matter what, you're not alone, and I'm not going anywhere. Your sister and nephew will be here later by the way. But think about what I said, Syd." With that she got up and left me to myself.

It honestly made me think about my options, I had been so reluctant to move forward with demi and it took me to get seriously injured to even consider taking things to the next level. I didn't know what I was going to do now, I couldn't wrestle, but I knew now that Demi would be with me every step of the way. My heart was broken that was for sure, I had nothing anymore, without my job but maybe, if I held that a little bit longer, she would be able to pick up the pieces. I really hoped she would, and I know that's what she wants, but at this point I didn't really have much to go off of now.