mephone4 one shots

TRIGGER WARNING : SELF HARM

this has been sitting in my drafts for a month mainly a mephone projecting fic but eh i got nothin to post
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its been a few weeks ever since mephone got his memories back , his brother is gone mephone have been searching all over the place secretly to find mepad but he can't find his younger brother no matter how hard he tries to find him now great he now also lost his younger brother just like how he lost his twin-brother and its all his fault always his fault all his fault , mephone is now in a island all by himself thinking about starting a new season not bothering to finish the other even if theres 4 final contestants left like it'll be only a few episodes but mephone just can't he couldn't he fucking couldn't do it , when he saw that paint of cobs he felt something get triggered in his system he then fell unconscious next thing he knows he remembers everything he blocked out , meeple,cobs, everything , and yet even if he blocks it all out again he'll end up remembering everything no matter what. mephone was even considering removing all his memories again even about the show til he saw the contestants saving fan few weeks ago but now thinking more of it he's glad he didn't but not for a stupid reason its because even if he DID remove all his memories again he'll remember them no matter how he'll get triggered and then his memories are back again no matter how hard he tries to run away

mephone then felt tears , he was crying , as he sat behind a tree and a bush in this lonely island even if he generated a whole cabin for him to stay in he didn't wanna be there even if theres storm clouds above him meaning its about to rain anytime soon , as tears kept flowing his eyes and mephone felt angry to himself why can't he just forget why can't he just run away from the past he don't wanna remember them he just wanna have peace why can't he be happy why can't he move on why can't he just forget about it and never ever remember it again

mephone sobbed

he felt so angry to himself he don't know why but he was so angry he just wanna hurt himself so bad in like a way as a punishment for crying over such a stupid thing

he just felt so angry he just wanna forget why can't he forget? why can't he forget the pain he felt when he remembered everything few weeks ago and remembering his twin-brother mephone4s sacrificing himself for HIM? out of all people? and now his younger brother is also gone , why can't he just move on , mephone hugged himself gripping his hands on his arm as he sobbed , he just wanna be in peace why can't he? why can't be happy like the others? why can't he just move on?

mephone sobbed

mephone sometimes would miss cobs even how horrible and a monster cobs is the things he did to mephone and 4s , he remembers one time when mephone accidentally dropped a glass of water and cobs got so mad he gripped mephones wrist til it bleeded it hurted so much he remembers when cobs didn't let him eat anything for a week since he's just a 'robot' he remembers when cobs locked him in a super tiny room mephone could only hug his knees tight to him while sitting on the floor to fit in the such small claustrophobic room he remembers everything

and he wishes he never did

mephone sobbed , and yet after all the horrible things cobs done to him why do he still misses him sometimes? he misses having the 'comfort' of having a 'dad' as if cobs ever comforted him , cobs was never even proud of mephone for anything he did even if mephone tried his hardest to make him proud or at least happy and yet why did mephone missed him?

mephone felt angry why can't he just thinking all about this as he gripped his arms so tight it started to hurt really badly as mephone sobbed his eyes full of tears , he wanted to hurt himself so badly because of how angry he is to himself , why can't he just move on why can't he just shut the fuck up for once and stop crying about such stupid bullshit like this? why can't he forget? why he is such a idiot over this?

mephone was sobbing so much as mephone hitted his arm with full force enough to make mephone be in pain very badly , it hurted so much , but mephone didn't care its 'punishment' for being such a crybaby over such stupid thing he should shut up and suck it all up and bottle it all up why does it matter anyways? mephone hitted himself on the arm again causing another bruise , why can't he just stop thinking about this? why can't he just— mephone hitted himself on the arm again but this time with a rock which ended up bruising mephone and scarring him as blood started dripping from the arm and blood on the rock since mephoen hitted himself harder this time but with a rock which made it worse , god why can't he just shut the fuck up for once as he forced himself to stop crying as he rubbed off the tears in his eyes as he sighed deeply and putted the rock down covered in tiny bits of blood , mephone shaked he felt regret washing over him for what he just did to himself why did he do such a stupid thing like this?

it hurted so bad why did he do it? he regretted it so fucking much for doing such a stupid thing , it hurted it hurted so bad he wanted to lay ont the ground and cry but at the same time he wanna hit his head on the wall to make it bleed til he passed out from how much pain he felt from hitting his head first on the wall til his head cracked and bled , why can't the thoughts just shut up for once? mephone felt sadness and anger and regret to himself as he stood up and went to his cabin , he covered the arm with bandages not bothering to disinfect it

mephone laid down on his bed and cried himself til he passed out and fell asleep