The Devil Judge ? || (ONE-SHOTS)

~LOOK AT THE MAN YOU LOVE (15/20)

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🔸KANG YO HAN 🔸

I looked at his tired face, the traces of tears laid like footprints on his diaphanous skin.

A beautiful flower streaked by the strong dew of nature.
An impetuous rain he did not at all deserve.

Small cuts spread over his rosy cheeks, his hair tousled with a few leaves tucked into his ebony-black locks.

"Did you hear that?... The fool said he loves you".

He said he loves you...

A lump came up in my throat, one that I pushed down without remorse, with all my strength, for I could not release the tears, I did not want to shed them and I did not want to give in to the weakness of my heart; of the kind of pain that clutched the insides in a feline grip, in order to leave no escape.

How could he love a despicable person like me? It was not possible, not humanly possible, not after all the evil I had done.

It is true that I had been manipulated by my father, and it was also true that I suffered from an irrational fear of my him at the time, but that still didn't justify anything.

I had still helped him to hurt people. And there was no redemption for me.

No forgiveness whatsoever.
Nor on earth or in heaven...

I did not deserve love, or to be loved.
I was undeserving of any form of affection.

I bit my lower lip as I lay him better between my arms, listening to the gentle breathing of his body. The sweet rise and fall of his chest, he had fallen fast asleep.
Just like a baby...

"Stop it Ga On! Stop talking so fast! What do you know about love?-

-I just know that it's growing deeper... You make me feel so many things at once and I can't breathe anymore... My heart seems to burst and I struggle to stop the words from flowing ...".

I narrowed my eyes, bringing to mind his wild, untameable words, driven by an inexplicable feeling that I read in his big doe eyes...

Love.

I walked on for a while longer, aided by my high sense of direction, trying to remember the path I had wandered along.
And so after some time, I spotted Mr Kim's van in the driveway.
I went for the backdoor, laying Kim Ga On cautiously against the back seats, then took off my jacket, covering him with it, before closing the car door and getting behind the steering wheel.

♦️[ ONE HOUR EARLIER}♦️

Isaac Kang's hands grabbed Kang Yo han's shoulders, then pulled him tightly towards him.

Wrath in his insidious eyes, his breath quick, hungry to hurt.

He ran down his brother's neck, until he placed his hands around his head, at ear level.

-You do nothing but despise me! You act as if you don't need me! When all you do is lay and spend your life with a boy who looks exactly like me! -
Isaac shouted in his face, affronted, deeply annoyed by the look full of worry that Kang Yo han had reserved for that idiot, an expression of someone who cared, someone who at any moment, would come to love.

Different and miles away from the one he instead reserved for him.

-I'm not afraid to kill him! We got rid of your friend Tom! I can do the same with him!- he continued to shout, bringing Kang Yo han's head against his forehead. Everything under the eyes of Kim Ga On, who watched the unfolding of that fiery and incomprehensible scene.

Kang Yo han stared back, his gaze bitter as he studied the obsolete mask his brother wore.

An abstract, invisible mask he stubbornly held, so he wouldn't have to admit the truth to himself. He won't have to admit the pain he inflicted to others.

-If you touch him, you'll have to go over my dead body first, Isaac. I will not allow you to kill the one thing that keeps my sanity standing...-

Isaac seethed with rage at those words, lashing out with a fist in his brother's stomach.
Kang Yo Han folded in two, almost coughing from the unexpected blow.

-Kang Yo Han! Please don't hurt him!-
Kim Ga On tried to get to his feet to reach to his bent figure, only to be shoved to the ground again with a kick to the side.

-Stay down! And don't you dare interfere! -Isaac threatened him, turning back to look at his brother.
Kang Yo han eventually recovered, pulling a punch against Isaac's face as well, who unprepared briefly stumbled backwards.

- I see... You really are ready to go against me, because of him-

Isaac wiped his mouth with the back of his hand, moving closer again, a span away from Kang Yo Han's face.

-Then let War begin... Dear brother- he spat acidly, with venom on his tongue, a brooding vengeance in his face.
Kang Yo han sighed openly, shaking his head.

-Stop it Isaac! There is no war to fight! I just want you to leave me alone...!-

However, he had no way to finish speaking, tugged again by Isaac's hands on the collar of his jacket.

-There shall be no rest for you, little brother! If I have to go down to the grave! You will come with me, you will descend into the underworld as a member of my body, as to one single soul...-
Burning embers, like lava. In the ferocious way those hate-filled words left his brother's mouth to collide with his already shattered spirit.

Those dark, beautiful eyes, damned and plagued by dark feelings, black in colour. An absolute black that resembled death.

Kang yo han's heart lost a few beats, and the words for a moment seemed to dissolve in his mouth.

-Isaac... Who do you think I see when I look at Kim Ga On? Who do you think I see besides him?-

For a quick instant, his elder brother appeared confused, enstranged by his question, breaking the river of rancour that was about to gather in his polluted mind.

-What the fuck do you mean?!-

Kang Yo Han freed himself from his brother's outstretched hands around his neck, staring at him with great turmoil.

-You have always hated my closeness to anyone other than yourself, but this time you are faced with someone like you! you have overwhelming proof that I simply cannot get rid of you, that yes! you are what I have devotedly loved and hated with equal fondness. Still, you are unable to let me go...-

Isaac seemed to freeze for a second, lingering with his gaze on his brother's expression, almost in a brief trance, a dissociation of the mind from the present reality.

-And the reason is not because you want to destroy me, it is merely because you wanted to be Tom then, as much as you now want to be Kim Ga On...-
Kang Yo han carried on speaking, taking advantage of that momentary silence from his brother, who stood like a statue of salt, glaring at him with extreme vigilance.

-You still want the unending devotion I used to give to you in the past.... But I cannot give it to you Issac, I cannot give you my all, unless you allow me to heal! Unless you give me a way to forgive you through Kim Ga On...-

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