Universal paths

-9:20pm
             I have spent so much time away from "creative writing", what is this urge to write things down now? Uncovering my old stories, and awakening a dead hobby that once kept me in high spirits, 17 years old now.... What have I been doing? Why can I no longer write like I once did, creating alternate universes filled with characters that all shared a part of me, almost like an instinct in those days. I could not put my pen down. I could not stop typing for however long. Now I'm stuck with my personal statement for college.... Nothing comes to mind... I could write about a loved ones passing ... but that feels so overused now. I could write about a travel scholarship I won! But that trip was cancelled not long after.. or, about the people that have inspired me... who knows ... there's too much and too little to write about,

*hour later*
         can I just ramble off? That's what I do best. I have the blessing of typing about anything so long as I have a key point I can hang on to. If that's the case then I can write for hours. Useful for essays. Not so useful when I have to edit the whole thing altogether... like now, I love to write freely there's nothing pushing me to make it any better. It's quite cheesy but necessary if I ever want to come up with a prompt for my college essay.
         I guess I'll leave it at this point, but I also don't like having too much freedom, funny how I still need some structure otherwise I can't really decide on just one thing. I'm very indecisive. My thoughts will hop from one place to another. I have become obsessed with Etch a sketch art, started sketching In 2022. And my favorite art form is Impasto. Art with texture is something I admire. It just feels so cool to be able to feel the paint and is somehow very captivating. I personally find that it come to me almost naturally unlike the other art mediums. The abstract nature of it makes me feel at peace. I found my 3DS from middle school and let me tell you it was eye opening.... How small I was back in 2012. And how very annoying.... I cried, who was that young girl? How could I have treated her so badly in those days? Why did I allow myself to get hung up on labels, which eventually destroyed my self esteem and mental health. I wish I wasn't so tied down on having to "label" myself at an age where I was getting used to adolescence, it took too big of a hold on me and I am glad I grew out of it.....I'll end it off tonight and try to study again ...

——-/ \——————————EXTRA——————-
If anyone has advice for personal college essays pls help  this poor student out lol