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▍japan, ua high
𝐎 𝐒 𝐇 𝐔 𝐍
𝐢. 𝐦𝐢𝐝𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐲𝐚
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second person

𝐖𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐃𝐎𝐄𝐒 𝐎𝐍𝐄 do when the clock of the inevitable ticks closer and closer to the present? When time feels like air, so hard to grasp that it leaves you suffocating and breathless. Should one beg to be forgiven of their sins? Not just of the past, but of the future that was to come? Does 'sins' depend on the savior one is begging to? Should one even beg if they're supposed to be loved and forgiven regardless? Would it even matter? Or should the beg anyway, beg whenever wrong is done? But to whom, would be the question. To a savior, or to themselves? To their future or to their past? To their heart, or another's?

Perhaps it would be better to say goodbye. Some say 'see you later' is better than 'goodbye.' Why is that? Does it bring those comfortable in the promise of seeing someone again? Wouldn't it better to say goodbye? See you later is a promise to come back, but you cannot see the future, you cannot promise that you will return. Wouldn't it better to not give false hope? The inevitable is unavoidable, and you do not know the foreseeable, so wouldn't it better to not give the impression that you can do what you may not be capable of? What you may not want to be capable of?

These very thoughts are what you took into consideration in your planning for the inevitable and unexplainable. It was your very reason for your decision to say goodbye to everyone. Starting from Kota and working your way up, skipping Mineta. You tried to be careful with your words, pretending as if you were doing what you normally did, spend time with everyone. But as the days passed, that tightness in your chest and that feeling of what's to come getting closer and closer, started to get suffocating.

"Thank you. I know I don't say it enough, or much at all, but thank you. You have consistently been someone I could trust, someone I can enjoy life with, and someone I can depend on. You are... more than what I thought when I first met you, but you've been a fun surprise. I'm glad I met you, I'm glad I became your friend, now best friend, and I wish only the best for you."

"Are you breaking up with me?"

"What?"

Your brows furrowed as you looked took in the odd question Mina had just asked you. The two of you had just spent the together, going to the movies then out to eat with Uraraka and Tsuyu. After taking a shower, doing your skin care and detoxing your body, you and Mina decided to chill in her room, and was now currently laying on her bed listening to music and playing a shared game.

"I asked, are you breaking up with me?" She repeated, giving you a sharp stare. "That sounds like a friendship break up. Are you trying to leave me? Because I will fight you. I'll lose, but I'll still fight."