Destined to be together ~ [A Smoleman Fanfic] ?

Guys. I'm so so sorry. It's two years since my last update. I don't know what to say but I had so much to do the last time. I also had to rewrite my next chapters because they were too bad. Now I want to give you an long chapter. Okay not thaaat quite long. Here we gooooo.
And sorry for mistakes, I didn't edit my grammar after the translation

I couldn't realise what I did there. I was frightened and opened my eyes. With that kiss I nearly destroyed two relationships and I can't do that to Richard and not even to Lily.
I guess Matt were the same opinion. We can't jeopardise our relationships just because I am perhaps emotionally confused. Matt looked at me with desparted eyes but he can read my face like a book and know this wouldn't work.
He hugged me to say goodbye, gave me a peck on the cheek and disappeared.
Did I destroy our relationship? Or could it be possible he has feelings for me? I mean he didn't declined our "almost" kiss. I'm so confused about everything.
I still stood in front of my apartment door and thought about how I could handle this whole situation.
I entered my apartment and noticed that Richard should be back yet because I saw his keys on the table. But something was wrong. All lights were off. I looked into every room until I found him in the kitchen. He stood with his back in my direction and worked at the stove. He made some food, I think. It should look like an omelet. I cleared my throat so he notices I'm home again.
He turned around but he didn't twitch his facial expressions.

"Oh, hey Jenna."
Jenna. He didn't call me that for ages. Mostly he called me darling etc. In that moment I realized something was wrong.

"What's wrong? You're so absent the last time." he said seriously and turned back.

"Richard? What?!"

"Jenna, do you still love me?"

What the hell did he talks about?! My first thought was he's drunk but no. "What are you talking there Richard?! Of course I love you!"

"And what about Matt?" There was a silence.

"What is with Matt?"

"Do you love him? You two spend so much time together. More than you with me. And don't tell me you don't have any feelings for him!" he said with clenched teeth.

Yes, I would say Richard is that jealous type of boyfriend, if you ask me. And now it get's much worse with his jealousy from time to time, especially when it's about Matt.

"Are you fucking serious?! Matt is my best friend and didn't saw him for an eternity. You know it's important for me to do something with him... At least he's there for me. At the premiere where you were only with Lily. He was the only one who talked to me."

"Him or me?"

"What?" I asked curious.

"Decide. Matt or me?"

"Richard what's wrong with you?!"

"I'm not joking Jenna!"

I didn't gave an answer. This conversation was too dumb for me and would calm down later... I thought.

"Okay Jenna. I have my answer."

I never experienced so much fury. He stormed out of the kitchen into the bedroom, took his suitcase and grabbed some clothes. I ran after him.

"Richard, what the heck are you doing?!" He was stubborn and said no word.

He really wanted to leave me. But I can't give up my friendship with Matt for him. This is too much for me. He ran out of the apartment door and turned around again and said:
"I might come back tomorrow. Up to then you can overrhink your answer."

And then he slammed the door shut and left me with tears in my eyes. I broke down and cried mor and more.
I had to text Matt. I needed him more tham ever. I took my phone and texted him, if he can come over because my mind is devasted.

Matt: I'm right there, Jen.

Fortunately, he's always there for me when I need him.
A few minuted later I wanted to go the bathroom to calm down. In that moment the bell rang at the door. I ran to it and opened it. It was Matt, of course. He was really fast and came straight to me to hug me tight. Without to ask what happend he hold me and consuled me. He gave me a kiss on the foreheadvand loosened his grip. Matt looked into my crying face and stroked with his hands a few hairs out of my face. He took my hand and we sat down on the couch.

"Wait a second, my dear. I make us some tea." he said and went into the kitchen and after some minutes he came back with a pot peppermint tea and two mugs. He sat right next to me again and took my hands.

"Now tell me. Jen, what's wrong?" he looked at me with a sad face.

"It's Richard." I cried a bit louder. "He left me."

Matt looked shocked. I know he couldn't believe it because he said once that Richard and I are a perfect couple. I know he wanted to ask the reason why he left, so I answered before he could ask.

"He was jealous because we two spend our time together..."
Now he cut me off.

"And that's why he left you? Jenna, I'm so sorry. I will talk to him and tell him there's nothing to worry abou..."

"Matt, just listen to me! That's not the total reason why he dumped me." I took a deep breath. "He made me choose... He wanted me to choose between you and me. But I couldn't do it. For me he is not worth to give up my best friend..."

"Jenna...'"

He always calls me Jenna when he's caring to much and only wants the best for me.

"I will tell you something. You made the right choice. Not because of me, because of Richard. He made you choose between two persons who means the world for you and you won't give up any of them and that's the thing he doesn't understand. He thinks you belong only to him and that's wrong. He doesn't own you. You are not a thing. Nobody can determine over..."

This time I cut him off and hugged him tight. I never wanted to hear words like this so much before.

"Thank you.." I whispered to him and it meant everything for me.

"For what?" he asked, but he knows exactly why.

"For being always there for me." I whispered again. I lose my grip a bit but he still hold me tight in his arms.
After a few minutes of cuddling he turned on the TV and we layed down on the couch.
My couch is big enough. There could sleep over five persons, so there was no problem with the space. But Matt didn't want to let go of me, which wasn't a problem. I quite liked it. I snuggled into his arms and layed my head on his chest for comfort. We watched TV but I didn't really concentrated on it because I was really tired. I just remembered that we slept like this the whole night until the morning.
But in the middle of the night.. there was something. I just heard in my half-sleep how some keys opened the front door. It must been Richard. No one else has the keys for the apartment. I only remember that he must have noticed how Matt and I slept arm in arm on the couch. Maybe he wanted to come back to apologize and regrets what he said. But it was too late. I never wanted to see him again.
Richard left shortly after he saw us. I think this is the end of our relationship.

Yessss. I finished chapter 6 after two years. 👏👏👏