The Model And The Don

Chapter 39

Logan laughed so hard, he toppled over onto the floor but not letting his drink spill which he causes a scene for.

"Logan!" I laugh as he raises his wine glass in the air.

"I fucking did that! You see that, Karlie? I didn't spill one drop!" Logan screams before busting out in another fit of laughter.

"Oh my god." I breathe as I try to calm myself.

We've drank over two bottles of wine and it hit us hard when we were done talking about tea then just random shit.

"Okay! I'm going to bed!" Logan shouts, standing up and stumbling out of the living room, holding his wine glass to his chest.

I shake my head with a smile on my face.

I sit there for god knows how long, looking out of the windows. The sun is setting and it's gorgeous but that pool in the backyard looks delicious.

I stumble to my feet to walk out there, leaving the sliding glass doors open. At first I was just going to deep my feet in but I changed my mind. Removing my sling, my shirt and pants before going down the stairs.

I couldn't help but giggle from the coolness of the water, tickling my warm skin.

I sigh as I float through the water on my back.

I should get drunk more often, I want to feel like this forever; carefree. No Jaxon, no Journey, no Janice, no one telling me to be places, no more ten things to do a day!

In this pool I'm just: Karlie. No model, no ex, no friend, no hostage. I'm no one. I giggle at the thought.

I'm no one!

"Karlie?"

My eyebrows furrow as my eyes bounce around confused, only seeing the sky and the walls of the estate.

"God?"

"No? It's Jaxon." He says and I now recognize his voice.

"Oh. Go away! I'm having fun!" I shout, closing my eyes. I hear him sigh harshly but I don't care because right now I'm floating in the abyss.

"Karlie, can you drink when you're on your medicine's?"

"Probably not." I giggle.

It gets silent. Maybe my brain cut off his voice because I can't hear him. The sky is orange and pink as birds fly across. I want to be a bird, they can fly everywhere, they can be whoever they want to be.

They are no one.

"I'm no one!" I shout, smiling wildly.

"What?"

"I'm no one!" I laugh before I flip, swimming underneath all of the water. Not stopping until I touch the bottom of the pool.

I open my eyes to see bubbles floating around me. I smile, reaching out to touch them. They are no one.

I close my eyes at the sudden feeling of my head being light. This is everything I've asked for. A moment for everything to disappear.

Please. Please. Please. Please. Stay this way.

I hear a splash before I'm being pulled. Is the birds grabbing me or is it the bubbles? Take me with you!

I gasp for air as soon as my head reaches the surface, looking up at the sky only to see no birds or bubbles. Only Jaxon.

"What the hell are you doing?" He shouts, pushing us to the shallow end.

"Why did you do that? I was fine!" I scream, suddenly aggravated.

"If I didn't get you, you would've stayed there. Weren't you? Are you trying to kill yourself?!" He shouts before something flashes in his eyes. "You were trying to kill yourself." He repeats quietly.

"I was not, I just needed everything to go away. I liked the silence of nothing, no one." I say, smiling before it slowly falls from the sad look on Jaxon's face.

"That's what suicidal people say." He tells me sternly, looking at me as if there was something wrong with me.

Then suddenly, everything came crashing down. I remember what he did to me, what Finn did to me. Damn, I just wanted to get away from them.

"Quit touching me." I mumble, moving away from him.

"You can't do this again. You scared the shit out of me." He says sternly, following behind me.

"I'll do whatever I want. You don't have to care about me anymore, we are done, remember?" I say, throwing him a dirty look.

"I told you that it was a mistake. I made a mistake. What do I have to do for you to forgive me?" He almost shouts as I jerk a towel off the chair and cover my shivering body.

I don't remember getting towels.

"Let's get one thing straight, Jaxon." I say his name almost in disgust. "Me coming back here doesn't mean you are forgiven and it definitely doesn't mean we can go back to the way we were. You broke that! You broke this! And most important, you broke me!"

My chest rises and falls heavily from my shouting. I didn't mean to say that much, I didn't want him to know that he hurt me as much as he did.

His face drops from my words and I walk inside, not giving him the chance to speak back to me. I don't care right now.

I don't care.