TW: suicides, grief, hallucinations
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You woke up in bed at around 1 pm. Today was your last day, you made that decision a few days ago. You got out of bed, still tired, and went to that bathroom and got changed. You wanted to look presentable in your coffin. Then you grabbed a bag and grabbed a belt and your blades and some tablets. You were making sure you were successful. You had felt line shit for months. When you woke up you felt nothing but empty and lonely. Even when you didn't wake up alone you still felt lonely.
You then grabbed a few of your favorite things and then out your bag on and left your room. You walked into the living room and as you expected, everyone was in there. And you walked over to Swiss who was closer and gave him a hug and je hugged you back then you gave him your favorite guitar pick. You then walked to Rain, hugged him and gave his your favourite shell. Then the same to Sodo and Papa and Mountain and everyone else, gave them a hug and a belonging and then they were all confused. "Are you going out?" Papa asks, "Yes, I'm going on a small get away. Just a couple days, I didn't tell you because I didn't want people to be hyped or ask to come with, I need a small break from the ministry. From Sister Imperator." You say and cover your mouth like its a secret. They all laugh and then you wave goodbye and walk towards the front door.
You walk down a corridor while there not looking and take a couple corridors to the back garden door. When you walk out luckily no one is there. You take a sip of the monster you took from the fridge before you left and then walk towards the woods. You left notes on your bed, for everyone. And another note with the coordinates to where you would be knowing they needed to find your body and then you walked towards those coordinates. It took about twenty minutes, you needed to make sure you were far enough away.
Then you sit down and open the bag. You cut a hold out of the bekt and loop it and attach it to one of the thin, but not weak branches. Then you sit down and take your jumper off and cut. You cut until you don't want to anymore, then you dig as deep as you can. It hurts, oh it hurts so bad, worse than you expected but you need to do it. Then you get the sweet release of death. Once you had done that you grab all of the medication and dump out the entire bottle into your hands. Ironically there anti-depressants you were on, you had been on your whole adult life almost and nobody in the ministry knows. You take all 35 at once. There only small, probably 25 milligrams each so you take three bug gulps of monster and swallow them all. Then you wrap your neck in the belt and let your legs collapse. You promptly pass out, either from blood loss or a broken neck.
Everyone was suspicious. No one gives away personal belongings before a small trip but no one said anything. Mountain knew you were on anti-depressants. He had found them in your bathroom one time but never told you, so after about 15 minutes he got up and walked to your room. When he saw the notes on your bed he knew exactly what they said. He grabbed the top one and it said coordinates. He ran back to the living room as fast as he could while trying not to cry. "Shes not coming back, we need to go to her. She left notes, she's probably gone. This says where she is we need to go." He says panicked and everyone jumps up knowing exactly what he means.
He types them into Google and then they go out and start running while some of them quickly get nurses and then run. With human glamored ghoul speed they get there in about 8 minutes. Too late you were already clearly not breathing. Your lips were already turning blue. Mountain used his claws and cut you down and felt for a pulse which he couldn't find. He started cpr on you until the nurses got there and took over. They started sewing up your arm, giving blood but they knew you weren't coming back. Swiss looked in your bag and noticed the anti-depressants, all gone.
"Shes gone." He says and drops the bag and container. After ten minutes of continuous cpr the nurses declared you dead. Everyone was frozen, completely frozen, they didn't know what to do. Then some of them turned to Mountain. "Why didn't you run faster?" Sodo shouted at him. "I don't know, I should have ran faster. Hey we should have noticed, this sint my fault, your just as guilty for this." He shouts and then Sodo growls at him. Everyone just starts blaming each other, angry and blaming it on someone else. Then one of the nurses shouted. "Listen, this was there decision okay. You should he blaming each other, you should be helping each other deal with this!" And they all stopped and turned to her. Then they nod. Then Aether looks down at your body, your eyes cold, dead.
