Sent from hell (Tom kaulitz story)

Anzelkia took a deep breath. Her heart was beating incredibly fast, she felt like it was going to burst. As her heartbeat echoed in her ears, she walked closer and closer to the sliding door. She saw Tom leaning over on the railing of the porch, watching as he turned his head slightly, blowing a cloud of smoke out the side of his mouth. She opened the sliding door, which startled Tom, who nearly dropped his cigarette.

"Hey..." she whispered as she shut the door.

"Hey" he said turning, giving her a small smile.

She rubbed her arms. Tom noticed she was wearing the same sweatshirt that Ky gave her, the words on the front fading. She slowly walked up next to him, and leaned over the rail, their elbows touching.

She reached up to his mouth and snagged his cigarette, placing it between her lips and taking a drag.

"You owe me a cigarette" Tom said, chuckling.

Anzelika exhaled out a laugh.

"Oh relax Tom it's not like I'm smoking the whole thing" she said rolling her eyes.

She then placed the cigarette between his lips, making direct eye contact with him as he looked down at her hands and then up to her eyes. Her fingers barely grazed his lips, the softness of her skin making him shudder. The blue of her eyes glimmered in the faint moonlight, as it cast a gentle light over her face. Tom's heart stopped as he looked at her. She grazed her hand along his chin before she returned it to the railing.

"I can't love you"

Tom nearly choked on his cigarette, catching it as it fell from his mouth.

Can't? Does that mean she-?

"W-what?" He was obviously caught by surprise.

She stayed silent, keeping her head straight, not daring to look at him.

Tom let out a sigh, looking down over the railing before he took a deep inhale. He had a feeling Ky talked to her as well and with that, his head begin to swim of what on earth she possibly meant by what she said.

"You can't or you don't?" He whispered, turning his head towards her.

"Can't..." she whispered back.

He felt a drop in his stomach, his heart dropping a bit as well. He knew she was afraid. He wished she wasn't but he knew she couldn't help it.

"Why can't you love me Anzelkia?" He said, leaning closer to her.

He heard as she shuddered a teary breath. She looked at him now, their faces hovering close to each other. Tears were in her eyes. She had never cried this much in a small span of time.

"Because I don't deserve to" the words barley escaped her mouth in a whisper.

Tom felt a stab in his heart. He turned, his body facing hers now. He grabbed her elbows, making her turn towards him. She crossed her arms as he cupped her face.

"Why?"

Her lip quivered. She didn't know why exactly but she just didn't feel like she deserved this kind of love from someone or at all for that matter. All because how she was.

"Tom look at me" she said, uncrossing her arms, gesturing up and down her body.

He followed her hands, looking her body up and down, landing back at her eyes.Her eyes were full of pain, pain of a war that took place between her head and heart.

"Look at how I am. Look at how I've treated you, how much I've hurt you"
Tears began pouring down her cheeks, as silent sobs left her mouth.

It was Toms turn to cry. He didn't bother to stop the tears that had been forming in his throat the entire time. He let them come. He didn't care. With her he just didn't care.

He stepped closer to her. His thumb brushed away the small rivers of water that continued to trickle down her face.

"Just because you can't, doesn't mean I don't" he whispered, hovering inches away from her face.

"Tom it's not that I don't love you it's that I just-"

Toms lips crashed onto hers, swallowing the rest of her sentence as he kissed her. He grabbed her face closer as she wrapped her arms around his upper back. His eyebrows furrowed, the need of her growing.

He kissed her deeply, his tongue grazing the bottom of her lip. She brought her arms up to the side of his face and neck, as his hands moved down to her waist, pulling her hips to his. Tears still fell down their faces as they kissed. Every other time they had kissed, it was full of denied hatred, resentment. This kiss however, held nothing but pure, beautiful love.

He pulled away, his hands still holding onto her waist. He leaned his forehead down onto hers.

"You could stab me a thousand times in the heart but it wouldn't stop loving you Anzelkia"

She tilted her face upwards, looking up at him.

"You could rip my eyes out but that wouldn't stop me from seeing your beauty. You could cut off my arms, and that wouldn't stop me from holding you. You could do so many things to me, but it won't stop my heart, my fucking soul, from loving you"  his voice cracked as he felt another wave of tears forming in his throat.

He leaned forward, touching thier foreheads together again.

"And I know anything I do won't stop you from loving me" he whispered, inches away from her lips. She didn't say anything, but she broke the distance between them, placing a gentle kiss on his lips.

"Nothing could stop me Tom" she said, letting out a teary laugh.

He laughed, pulling her into a hug, resting his cheek on her shoulder.

"It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words, it makes me weak"

Oh my god

She felt as he softly sang against her shoulder.

"And I never wanna say goodbye
But, girl, you make it hard to be faithful"

Tom pulled away from the hug, his hands finding her face, looking into Anzelikas eyes. Her lips were slightly parted, in shock.

"With the lips of an angel" he whispered before once again kissing her.

Anzelkia was still in shock. She was bewildered, nothing in this moment seemed real. He sang to her. To anyone that would've seemed just down right romantic, which in a way it was, but it touched her heart deeply. She never knew anyone else besides Ky noticed when she sang, it was her way of communicating, it was her way of getting her emotions out without having to actually say anything. He made her feel heard, made her feel seen, with those simple lyrics.

They went from hating each other, to feeling nothing but love for each other.

I fucking cried writing this 💀
I've been super conscious about people thinking I'm moving this story too fast lol
Sorry for the late updates I just haven't had the energy, I've been on vacation and once again conscious about my writing

Btw I will be making another Tom fanfic, one from his dread era so be sure to check that out. You can either follow me or add the story to your reading lists for further updates. I will be focusing on it more once I finish this story and the sequel I plan releasing as well 😏