Tormented by our Futures (Part 1)

Chapter 6

Potter packs up the rest of his things and gets out of his chair just as the last of the students leave the room. He looks so lost "Really?" Harry asks me just as we're leaving the classroom. "You'll help me? Because I could just get Hermione to help me or something," He says quickly, slipping through the door in front of me.

"It's fine Potter honestly," I say. Maybe it would be better if he got his friends to help him rather than be, but it's a bit late now. "We've got a free after-lunch, I can help you then," I say to the back of his head.

"... Alright" he replies slowly, his voice hoarse with sleep.

We walk side by side again in the hallway. "The library good?" I ask.

"Uh... yeah sure," He says before branching away to walk with his friends.

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"I can't believe you slept through that entire class," Hermione says placing her newspaper on the table. As soon as I found Ron and Hermione outside of Potions Hermione immediately started talking about the work they did in that class, and because I was asleep, I had no idea what she was talking about. And of course, I told them both.

"I can't believe Slughorn let you off so easily," Ron says with a mouthful of food "You've really got him wrapped around your little finger haven't you?" He continues after swallowing. I suppose Ron's right. I mean I was a suck-up to Professor Slughorn in sixth year because Dumbledore had asked me to, I guess that still comes with benefits.

"I need to tell you both something," I say placing my cup down on the table. Both my best friends looked up at me with concerned expressions and stopped whatever it was they were doing.

I sigh trying to form my words. "Go on Harry," Hermione says softly.

"I'm uh... I'm not sleeping," I say slowly "Like at all. I either fall asleep and wake up with nightmares or don't sleep at all." I continue. "It's been going on since the battle and I would just have a few naps throughout the day at Grimmauld place to try and keep up with it," I pause "I can't really do that here though," I let out a short huff laugh "I hadn't realised until recently but it's getting harder and harder for me to concentrate and I honestly don't know what to do," I say feeling defeated.

"Oh Harry," Hermione says softly holding my hand gently. "Why didn't you tell us sooner?" She asks softly. I look down at the table taking a moment before answering her.

"I didn't want you to worry and I really didn't want any more of your help, you've both given me way too much of that. I didn't want to be any more of a burden," I say quietly. Hermione draws small circles on the back of my hand.

"Being there for you isn't a burden mate," Ron says finally.

"Harry I don't know when you're going to get this through your thick skull..." Hermione says smiling softly "But we're in this together. We were before everything kicked off with Voldemort, we were during it all and we still are after." She says softly.

"It's all or nothing, mate," Ron says. I nod. I'm so lucky to have these two.

"I just thought I could handle it myself... I also thought that you'd just walk away like Ginny did" I say quietly looking down at the table.

"Ginny was a bitch for doing that, Harry. She wasn't with you every step of the way, she didn't see everything you've been through. We have Harry, and even though we don't know exactly how you feel, we understand. And it's ok Harry." Hermione says gripping my hand tighter.

"Hermione's right, Ginny was in the wrong," Ron says looking down the table at his sister who giggled with another girl from her year. "You've lost so much, mate, but you will not lose us," He says looking back at me.